Here's my story. I'm 47 y.o. and determined to get out of isolation. I'm heterosexual and proud of it. i have been isolated most of my life convinced women never have sex. I suspect i have schizoid/schizotypal personality disorder but i have never been diagnosed.
And because of this mostly lifelong isolation and involuntary celibacy i've been off and on anti-depressant medication since 1999.
However, with relationships and being a man I'm the worst of the worst.
Let me disclose some really personal stuff here.
I have been unable to attract any quality women my entire life.
I went all the way in to my 30's without a hug or a kiss from a woman.
Currently, i have no friends except for a few people i talk to once a year.
I am currently doing salsa dancing lessons. I have also been studying the art of pickup and seduction on youtube from RSD and others.
I feel uneasy in social situations and can't approach anyone in a bar or nightclub due to being uneasy.
I have a lot of negative self thoughts and chronically low self-esteem. I don't know how to get out of this...
campeon del mundo
Scott
And because of this mostly lifelong isolation and involuntary celibacy i've been off and on anti-depressant medication since 1999.
However, with relationships and being a man I'm the worst of the worst.
Let me disclose some really personal stuff here.
I have been unable to attract any quality women my entire life.
I went all the way in to my 30's without a hug or a kiss from a woman.
Currently, i have no friends except for a few people i talk to once a year.
I am currently doing salsa dancing lessons. I have also been studying the art of pickup and seduction on youtube from RSD and others.
I feel uneasy in social situations and can't approach anyone in a bar or nightclub due to being uneasy.
I have a lot of negative self thoughts and chronically low self-esteem. I don't know how to get out of this...
campeon del mundo
Scott