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- Mar 30, 2011
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I've been taking adderall since I was 20 to help with school and work. I quickly realized the more I took the more I productive I could be. I excelled in work, have energy for the gym and still cleaned my house at midnight. I quickly rose through the ranks at work. Graduated school with a 3.6 gpa while on gear and lifting everyday. This last year I have seen the dark side to my long term use. I've been taking 120-140mg daily sometimes more due to the tolerance I've built up. My body weight was on average an even 200lbs. I am now down to 160lbs soaking wet. I can't sleep through a night. I can't eat like I use to. I'm 29 and have a 1 year old son Whom I love with all my heart. I decided that it was time to accept I had a problem and quit before I'm dead and my son would only have pictures for memories of who his dad was. So I quit. 2 days pass and I relapsed hard. I passed out at work from sleep deprivation but told everyone I had the flu. It's hard for me to even type this cause my hands are shaking. I am feeling like I am seeing people in my peripheral when no one is there. I am severely depressed and feel like a stranger in my own body. Was wondering if anyone else has gone through this? Any advice?