For the past 9 years I have put in blood, sweat and tears into this thing called bodybuilding. Deep inside of me always wanted to become a pro. I have second guessed myself probably a million times. Working odd-jobs, 9-5s, graveyards and even some illegal activity I should'nt have been participating in to get by. Right now, I am just stuck, unemployed and need some guidance or something.... In my whole 29 years of life I have never been passionate about or have been dedicated to anything like I have been with bodybuilding. All the serious lifters on here know what it takes between getting each and every meal in every 2 hrs, hrs upon hours of hitting the gym hard day in and day out. I know this is what I want to do but I dont know? lol i feel like an idiot for typing that just now buit that is how i feel. Seems like the doubts are getting to me and I dont know where to start honestly. My chest, shoulders and back are covered in acne scars and keloids, i am currently unemployed and living with my family. Is there a way to get sponsorship somewhere or what can I do in the fitness field to make my dreams become a reality? I've tried personal training but these damn commercial gyms are so competitive and got me training people with the shittiest programs. I guess if no1 reponds this was just a good way of venting my frustration haha. Gnite folks.