Hoping to vent and get some advice from some of you wise board members. I've posted in here before regarding divorce and marital issues. Here it goes:
I am currently deployed again (this makes 2 out of the last 3 years at this point). My wife is also a service member. During my last deployment I found out she was being unfaithful. I got home and was not in a good place in life, and really haven't been since. I saw a lot of very unsavory things on my last deployment, and when I got home I was just looking for something comfortable and familiar to try and level me out. So I forgave her and stayed with her.
Got news that she would be deploying, and I knew I didn't trust her or our marriage to make it through another deployment apart. It just so happened that they needed people for the deployment. We talked about it, and I was pretty sure that we would end up getting divorced if I didn't go. So I volunteered to come.
I've gone back and forth on if I wanted to stay married to my wife constantly since she cheated on me. I didn't want to just quit and give up on our marriage.
We talked about having a child, so I came off of everything about a year ago now. I'm coming to the realization that I'm just not happy with our marriage. I'm not in love with her, but of course care about her deeply.
I am getting out when we get back, and I honestly just want to be alone. I'm an introvert to begin with, but after the last few years I just really want to be alone to work on myself and my life. I am definitely forcing it - this entire thing. And now I'm hating life because I'm deployed again, stuck spinning my wheels, and what am I supposed to do tell her I want a divorce while we are deployed together? Any advice, thoughts, or inputs will be very appreciated.
I am currently deployed again (this makes 2 out of the last 3 years at this point). My wife is also a service member. During my last deployment I found out she was being unfaithful. I got home and was not in a good place in life, and really haven't been since. I saw a lot of very unsavory things on my last deployment, and when I got home I was just looking for something comfortable and familiar to try and level me out. So I forgave her and stayed with her.
Got news that she would be deploying, and I knew I didn't trust her or our marriage to make it through another deployment apart. It just so happened that they needed people for the deployment. We talked about it, and I was pretty sure that we would end up getting divorced if I didn't go. So I volunteered to come.
I've gone back and forth on if I wanted to stay married to my wife constantly since she cheated on me. I didn't want to just quit and give up on our marriage.
We talked about having a child, so I came off of everything about a year ago now. I'm coming to the realization that I'm just not happy with our marriage. I'm not in love with her, but of course care about her deeply.
I am getting out when we get back, and I honestly just want to be alone. I'm an introvert to begin with, but after the last few years I just really want to be alone to work on myself and my life. I am definitely forcing it - this entire thing. And now I'm hating life because I'm deployed again, stuck spinning my wheels, and what am I supposed to do tell her I want a divorce while we are deployed together? Any advice, thoughts, or inputs will be very appreciated.