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- May 2, 2014
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I cant sleep and these thoughts have been bugging me for almost a year now. Don't know how to deal with them and i havnt really spoken to anyone about it. I don't know what im doing here on earth anymore. I'm 26 years old, no girl, no kids, no job prospects, pretty much I've lost all my passion for my field of study and failed at some of my other passions and i keep getting into trouble everywhere I go, falling in and out of addiction, i'm surprised im not dead or locked up in an asylum somewhere. Don't even know what I want to do with my life anymore. I tried enlisting, i felt like it was better than rotting away in civilian life, at least they can try to use me for something that benefits our country but i have bad vision problems, i wasn't given a waiver at the time. First time I've actually felt this way and I don't want to chase money, power or the worldly possessions. I hope something comes into my life soon, I'm beginning to forget what it means to be human. The days have been long and empty.