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Let me start with I am not an emotional person. At all. Not bragging in any way or trying to sound like a hard ass, but I'm just not. I've lost friends over the years for various reasons, never looked back. Girlfriends come and go. But today I had to end it with my best friend, the one person I never thought I would ever lose touch with. Basically because I'm a guy and she's a girl.
So 7 years ago this girl and I became really close. This was freshman year of college. We knew each other in high school but weren't close at all. So her and I were attracted to each other, had s few brief flings in college, but nothing serious. I would do anything for her. Anything.
So in May she was dating s guy for over s year, but her and I randomly started getting really flirty with each other. More so than usual as we still always were. Her sending me questionable pics, stuff like that. This went on for a few months. Now as much as I love the girl, she's cheated on basically every boyfriend she's been with. Usually ended up dating the guy she cheated with if that makes any difference.
So in May we both went to my brothers wedding and we got a hotel room together after. I was sober as I don't drink as she was too. After that she broke up with her boyfriend and we started dating. This lasted 3 months or so and she ended it but I wasn't exactly upset about it. This was the first time we really dated even though it was so brief and after all this time of what I thought it would be---it just wasn't. So it ended. No big deal.
Month later we aren't talking as much as we used to which is usually daily basically and I found out she got back with her ex. Now I honestly don't care. I'm not jealous or anything but she basically tells me she can't talk to me because of what happened between us.
So I'm half livid and half I want to throw up. This girl was legit my best friend and the only friend I really cared about. Now in hindsight it was never s good idea for us to have our fling and all the other million mistakes of being too attached to someone I was attracted to but I'm just at w complete loss. She says eventually she will be able to be friends when it's clearly just an issue of guilt for her (he doesn't know what happened and I know he has plans on marrying her).
So what the fuck do I do. Sit around waiting to see if she gets over it and we go back to being friends? Tell her to go fuck herself? For how much I've done for her over the years I'm just amazed she can end it between us but the other half of me just wished we could somehow go back to how we were--friends not fucking each other
So 7 years ago this girl and I became really close. This was freshman year of college. We knew each other in high school but weren't close at all. So her and I were attracted to each other, had s few brief flings in college, but nothing serious. I would do anything for her. Anything.
So in May she was dating s guy for over s year, but her and I randomly started getting really flirty with each other. More so than usual as we still always were. Her sending me questionable pics, stuff like that. This went on for a few months. Now as much as I love the girl, she's cheated on basically every boyfriend she's been with. Usually ended up dating the guy she cheated with if that makes any difference.
So in May we both went to my brothers wedding and we got a hotel room together after. I was sober as I don't drink as she was too. After that she broke up with her boyfriend and we started dating. This lasted 3 months or so and she ended it but I wasn't exactly upset about it. This was the first time we really dated even though it was so brief and after all this time of what I thought it would be---it just wasn't. So it ended. No big deal.
Month later we aren't talking as much as we used to which is usually daily basically and I found out she got back with her ex. Now I honestly don't care. I'm not jealous or anything but she basically tells me she can't talk to me because of what happened between us.
So I'm half livid and half I want to throw up. This girl was legit my best friend and the only friend I really cared about. Now in hindsight it was never s good idea for us to have our fling and all the other million mistakes of being too attached to someone I was attracted to but I'm just at w complete loss. She says eventually she will be able to be friends when it's clearly just an issue of guilt for her (he doesn't know what happened and I know he has plans on marrying her).
So what the fuck do I do. Sit around waiting to see if she gets over it and we go back to being friends? Tell her to go fuck herself? For how much I've done for her over the years I'm just amazed she can end it between us but the other half of me just wished we could somehow go back to how we were--friends not fucking each other