I'm really on the fence about which direction to go here and would like to hear from others in a similar, "been there done that situation". I'll give my entire background and history with the chase to improve myself and where I'm at now and then I'd like your opinions based on that.
History:
1.Always been a gym guy, worked out all my life, no history of AAS or cycles. Was actually waiting until TRT time to cruise and blast. I figure it won't matter then.
2. I'm in week four of my very first cycle, ever, age 49, 300mg Test Cyp ONLY cycle. I have responded extremely well. Gains, pump, overall sense of well being is incredible. I have arimidex and will introduce HCG in a week. My libido spiked through the roof the first week and has declined since. It's flat at best right now. And that bothers me some. My current labs have test well over 1500, E at only 8 and free test 51.
3. History. at age 46, noticed sex drive, erections and gym workout were flat. Ran my test, came back at 503. Improvised diet, intensified workouts, ran again, 511. I can't say I felt horrible, just not my historical self.
4. Went to a men's clinic knowing nothing and was prescribed HCG mono therapy. Was on it for three months and test levels went down to 350-ish, two tests.
It drove me lower....Said fuck this and dropped out. Started researching day and night for my own answer.
5. Went on Clomid 15mg monotherapy every THIRD day and at that low dose, bumped my T up to above 700, stayed between 650-800 for three years. Sides were brain fog, moodiness, low sex drive...Only thing that felt better was my gym gains, although slight. Got so sick of the Clomid I started cycling it. Would feel better off, than on. Finally gave it up.
6. Let Clomid run out of my system for 40 days and tested again, came back at 480. I decided I was going to do my first blast and maybe go into TRT. I've researched for many that when they go on TRT when not shut down, it can kill their libido, and for good. I am not shut down, I can hold test levels around 450-500 at age 49-50. Not bad I know, but that is just not for me. I'm an ole gym rat and I like to feel masculine, muscular, pumped, you get the idea. You're all there with me on that.
7. So here I am, 4 weeks into what will become either my first blast, turned to cruise, or PCT. If I do PCT, will I do another cycle in three months, even if I recover? You bet. I've seen the results just from 4 weeks in and it's mind blowing. So I'm hooked in. My only question is libido.
Libido is my main concern. I do not want to kill it. I can get erections with ED medications and direct stimulation, but just visual or thought erections seem to be a thing of the past. I was hoping this cycle might show that to come back, but it hasn't. I was doped up the other on 100mg of viagra, my girl who is literally a 9.9, naked, swim suit model, on her hands and knees begging me to F her and my dick was dead. She had to give me head for ten minutes before I could fuck her. There was a day five years ago, seeing that and I'd have been rock hard in seconds. I want or need those days back. LOL. But I don't want to kill off what drive and performance I do have. I fear that.
So my question is, if you were me, would you go right into TRT given the above, do an aggressive PCT, then another cycle later? I'm literally on the fence here.
Any advise is welcomed.
History:
1.Always been a gym guy, worked out all my life, no history of AAS or cycles. Was actually waiting until TRT time to cruise and blast. I figure it won't matter then.
2. I'm in week four of my very first cycle, ever, age 49, 300mg Test Cyp ONLY cycle. I have responded extremely well. Gains, pump, overall sense of well being is incredible. I have arimidex and will introduce HCG in a week. My libido spiked through the roof the first week and has declined since. It's flat at best right now. And that bothers me some. My current labs have test well over 1500, E at only 8 and free test 51.
3. History. at age 46, noticed sex drive, erections and gym workout were flat. Ran my test, came back at 503. Improvised diet, intensified workouts, ran again, 511. I can't say I felt horrible, just not my historical self.
4. Went to a men's clinic knowing nothing and was prescribed HCG mono therapy. Was on it for three months and test levels went down to 350-ish, two tests.
It drove me lower....Said fuck this and dropped out. Started researching day and night for my own answer.
5. Went on Clomid 15mg monotherapy every THIRD day and at that low dose, bumped my T up to above 700, stayed between 650-800 for three years. Sides were brain fog, moodiness, low sex drive...Only thing that felt better was my gym gains, although slight. Got so sick of the Clomid I started cycling it. Would feel better off, than on. Finally gave it up.
6. Let Clomid run out of my system for 40 days and tested again, came back at 480. I decided I was going to do my first blast and maybe go into TRT. I've researched for many that when they go on TRT when not shut down, it can kill their libido, and for good. I am not shut down, I can hold test levels around 450-500 at age 49-50. Not bad I know, but that is just not for me. I'm an ole gym rat and I like to feel masculine, muscular, pumped, you get the idea. You're all there with me on that.
7. So here I am, 4 weeks into what will become either my first blast, turned to cruise, or PCT. If I do PCT, will I do another cycle in three months, even if I recover? You bet. I've seen the results just from 4 weeks in and it's mind blowing. So I'm hooked in. My only question is libido.
Libido is my main concern. I do not want to kill it. I can get erections with ED medications and direct stimulation, but just visual or thought erections seem to be a thing of the past. I was hoping this cycle might show that to come back, but it hasn't. I was doped up the other on 100mg of viagra, my girl who is literally a 9.9, naked, swim suit model, on her hands and knees begging me to F her and my dick was dead. She had to give me head for ten minutes before I could fuck her. There was a day five years ago, seeing that and I'd have been rock hard in seconds. I want or need those days back. LOL. But I don't want to kill off what drive and performance I do have. I fear that.
So my question is, if you were me, would you go right into TRT given the above, do an aggressive PCT, then another cycle later? I'm literally on the fence here.
Any advise is welcomed.