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- Jun 17, 2022
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Hi everyone, not new to the forum been following since 8 years but posting this time. I am 26 years old been lifting since I was 16 , when i was in high school i was very thin and shy guy ,having social anxiety all the time. So I joined gym and improved my physique which in turn improve my life and the anxiety . So at the age of 19-20 i started my first cycle after that till covid i was on and off gear doing blood test and every thing , after that my mba got completed got a job which i had to leave because of deaths of 2 of my family members during covid . So i had to stay at my parents house and look after them. No problem regarding the job because i got many offers but i am not joining because i had to look after my family at this point , I am home for like 7-8 months drinking not going to the gym ,all the gains that I made lost , now that i have stopped drinking and did the blood work again everything is as it was after after the last pct ,test is like 430 at this point no anxiety due to harmone, what's bothering me is that all the anxiety that i experienced when i was thin and small started to kick in and that too so severe i cannot move out of the house , I can go to the gym ,take gear, look good again, life will continue as normal but will this happen every time, cause eventually everything has to be stopped later at some point. Also there will be many time i couldn't keep that muscle .my question is Will this happen everytime and do you guys experience it .the low confidence and anxiety you feel like someone ripped the level 3 armour from you body , like you were a queen and all your jewellery got robbed , how you guys cope up with that?
That's stopping me from using gear but without it i am not gaining the confidence i need to face the world or myself, i feel weak. Low self esteem everything.
That's stopping me from using gear but without it i am not gaining the confidence i need to face the world or myself, i feel weak. Low self esteem everything.