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sitting in the hotel. show is tomorrow morning. i have barely slept the last 2 nights i am so excited, but after i went to my trainers for posing today and he gave me a good report i was able to come back and relax. weighed 230 on the nose this morning. posing hard after every meal. the more i pose the harder i seem to get. i am not at the level of most of you, but i have worked hard all year for this show and the one in 2 weeks from now. last year i was a scrawny 207 lbs with no leg definition, i am a better conditioned 230 lbs this year and so pleased with my progress. this is one of those things in life i czn look at and say i did not quit. i have quit on life before, well not this time. i have not been perfect, whether it be training, diet or attitude, but i have not given up. someone posted what was bodybuilding the other day. for me it is a life lesson. can i stick to my guns when making hard decisions concerning my kids? can i do the right thing by my family even though it can be a hassle to do so? can i be a leader at work? can i show my son that a committment is just that, something that is to be seen all the way through? am i emotional or whaT, lol! anyway. i am gonna step on stage tomorrow, look out at my wife and smile and say thank you before i hit my first front relaxed! then i am gonna kick back, relax, oh yeah and have fun!! some of you guys have helped me put some things in perspective this year. this is a part of my life, not my life. i am a dad, husband son, brother first. scary to say i am a dad but i am! my best friend and workout partner and his wife are driving 6 hours to be with us for this ahow. then we will do a show together in 2 weeks. we are sending our wives to a day spa for putting up with us!! i will chweck in later folks.