I have gone into blind rages and am afraid I will eventually hurt someone. I can be so rational at times but then a switch flips and I'm a complete maniac. It usually occurs when my step-son is disrespectful towards his mother. He's almost 19 so he's not a kid anymore. He's 6'5 and 140 lbs...so he's a walking praying mantis or stick figure. I know I can snap his neck in about 10 seconds so I have to work really hard on controlling my anger. If he ever raised his fist or pushed his mother, it would be all over for him. This is on AAS or not. Lately, I have taken a step back and have stopped getting involved. It's tough as this is a kid who totaled my SUV while trying to drift (who drifts in a SUV .... stupid people). He have also been warned by our HOA that he's driving like a maniac through the subdivision and nearly missing children. When asked he said, "I don't give a fuck about them kids". It took all I had to not lay hands on him at that moment. I'm working on it. I'm off the sauce for now.