I can only imagine man. When my time comes, I’m gonna miss my boys. That’s great tho you found happiness and a wife brother. Not everyone can have that chapter added to their book of life.
There’s a quote that still to this day resonates in my soul.
“As life runs on, the road grows strange with faces new - and near the end, The milestones into headstones change, Neath every one a friend." - James Russell Lowell
How many years do you have in at the moment? I always tell everyone if you make it to 10, hanging in there and ride it out for the retirement. I had one friend give it up at 15 years, I couldn't believe it. He just couldn't make it to the end. Another contractor I worked with did 18 and quit. Now they regret it because they would have a steady monthly income coming in plus benefits.