To be fair, my experimentation with very high doses was from 2023-2025. From 2010-2021 it was all basic boring shit with the occasional bad advice from someone on get big or gh15 forum. 2022 i took completely off for fertility.
From my perspective, what life benefit does staying over 200 pounds give me? Give me 1 reason to continue being 200+. It doesn’t serve me in any way anymore.
Once i knew that i had no reason to hold onto what i was doing it was really easy to make the decision to test out the research doses/protocol of Reta and what they are putting everyone through in the TRIUMPH trials to see for myself how it works.
When you stop focusing on protein, when you stop training with weights daily and drop to 1-2 sessions a week where you really don’t give AF about maintaining any size, When you prioritize cardio training, and when you go into a serious caloric deficit because it’s easy to with 12mg of Reta and then on top of it go from using 500-1000mg of test and other stuff to dropping to 250 test a week and nothing else at all…. It’s pretty easy to go from an unnatural 245 to 195 in 16 weeks. I know… amazing right?

I’m literally doing everything you shouldn’t do if you want to maintain muscle mass because i do genuinely want to go back to a normal natural size like i was when i was 20.
In 2022 i came off everything for the year for fertility, from Feb to Feb. that year i went from 260 to 245 because i was still eating and training and not doing all the things i am now to shrink. I learned that year it is VERY hard to drop size and you have to actively be perusing it and pushing hard to make it happen. If i wanted to stay 220-240 i think i could have maintained that on trt with proper eating and training and none of you would be saying this ridiculous shit about oh he never had a base or any real muscle

guys I’ve been lifting weights since I was 13 give me a goddamn break. I grew back then from a husky 130 pound wrestler to a fit 171 pounder at 18 with bodybuilding and loved everything about it from then until now and started steroids at 23 at a lean 160 and grew to a peak weight of 285 at 37.
I am actively perusing muscle loss and downsizing. Turns out I’m pretty good at it. I’m sorry if it’s not what you all want to see me do but do any of you know how much easier life has been after letting go of bodybuilding? OMG to not worry about food and training everyday or what i look like is so fucking liberating after only being concerned about it since i was made fun of as a thick kid with gyno. I have so much extra time on my hands to dive deeper into other things, i love it.
And the catalyst to all of this was realizing how much my family needs me and how much I want to be there for them long term and when all things are equal there is no denying that the guy at 170 pounds and 8% bodyfat with all perfect health markers has a better shot at outliving the 220+ pounder at 8% bodyfat with all perfect health markers when both of these people have a 16 year history of steroid use/abuse.
Yes i have been the guy blasting gear and maintaining great blood pressure and great bloodwork for the last 3 years but there’s a lot that i don’t know, that none of us know. I’ve gotten clear full body MRIs and CT scans and from what I can tell I’ve gotten out unscathed but you don’t know what you don’t know and I think I’ve rolled the dice long enough, and it just isn’t worth it anymore. Bodybuilding has served its purpose for me. It built me a life i never imagined I would get to live and I want to continue enjoy that life and it turns out i don’t need to continue bodybuilding to do that and if that makes me someone that never truly enjoyed bodybuilding and training because I’m not going to take it to the fuckin grave then so be it. I’m not a bodybuilder