I believe that I was predisposed to depression, which runs in my family. Ever since I can remember, I was riddled with anxiety and anger, which manifested into a fully depressive state following high-school. For 12 years I tried counseling and medications, neither of which were particularly effective. Finally in 2005 as environmental factors exasperated my condition, I went to what I believed was my last resource and hope...God
I thought at this point that, "what do I have to lose?". I hadn't been to church in years and really hadn't a real relationship with God for that long as well, but I started to just talk to him as if he was a friend sitting next to me (which he was). Even if I was around people, I would have an internal dialogue which would often calm me during previously stressful situations.
What I think God does is open doors. From my establishment of a relationship with him, I began to be pointed toward spiritual teachers and self-fulfillment gurus who help further develop my spirituality.
The conclusion is that this change of direction in my life has helped me tremendously. Gone is the chronic anger, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, and anti-depressants. I cannot say that everyday is sunshine and roses, but compared to where I was 5 years ago, I know that my decision to live my life through God was the correct one.
If you are struggling with these issues, I hope that I have put an option into your mind that may have not previously been there.
I thought at this point that, "what do I have to lose?". I hadn't been to church in years and really hadn't a real relationship with God for that long as well, but I started to just talk to him as if he was a friend sitting next to me (which he was). Even if I was around people, I would have an internal dialogue which would often calm me during previously stressful situations.
What I think God does is open doors. From my establishment of a relationship with him, I began to be pointed toward spiritual teachers and self-fulfillment gurus who help further develop my spirituality.
The conclusion is that this change of direction in my life has helped me tremendously. Gone is the chronic anger, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, and anti-depressants. I cannot say that everyday is sunshine and roses, but compared to where I was 5 years ago, I know that my decision to live my life through God was the correct one.
If you are struggling with these issues, I hope that I have put an option into your mind that may have not previously been there.