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- Jul 31, 2014
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I hope I’m not breaking rules here so sorry mods in advance. Just wanted to touch base while I was never a huge contributing member here I used to love coming on here. Not going to bore everyone to death but wanted to be open and transparent and offer help and guidance if I could. I think the vast majority of us here know what we are doing isn’t healthy and I’m not talking about our organs ok I’m talking about our mental state.
I was a steroid junkie straight up blast small blast cruise with compounds other than test didn’t start out that way of course but it progressed to that .
Why? Because we are all obsessed with being better than. That’s bodybuilding , who here is in a n aerobics class raise your hand.
Long story short I was huge best shape of
My life looked fucking good, I became a complete narcissist straight up bros. But then one day herniated disc ouch right can’t do shit. So what did I do? Like a fucking Dumbass? I blasted heavier doses right kept lifting ignored all the great stuff I got here on the forum, but like how many of those post did people take their own advice? I don’t know the answer to that but I hope they did.
Steroids brought me to a dark dark dark world of depression,
Suicidal thoughts, cocaine abuse, alcohol abuse, Tylenol 3 xan you name it because I was so fucking depressed fucking with my hormones and being a Dipshit. And ignoring what was causing my depression all for a big chest and a six pack. I ruined my marriage my life and tried to commit suicide( I’m so thankful to be alive now
I’m a complete idiot and for what I did).
I digress I’m writing this but I see this same post so often when someone dies but after the calum thing I just said man I know I’m not the only one but I think we always try to “justify” our dosage like the one “10mg of tren a day is ok and healthy because blah blah does it you get my drift. I just want to say I’m out the game I’m on TRT because I’m fucked basically but hey that’s what happens right. Listen I take responsibility too I’m a jackass an idiot I stuck that needle in me I picked up the bottle and blasted coke daily . I opened pandoras and lost.
I just wanted to extend our and tell anyone and everyone I’m here for anyone going through a tough time and or someone who is battling this. I’ll check in for the next few weeks but after that I’ll probably check out of here. I want to be healthy and be there for my kids so being around juice talk all day is stuff I just can’t deal with.
I truly appreciate everyone here again mods can definitely modify if needed definitely not trying to cross a line.
I was a steroid junkie straight up blast small blast cruise with compounds other than test didn’t start out that way of course but it progressed to that .
Why? Because we are all obsessed with being better than. That’s bodybuilding , who here is in a n aerobics class raise your hand.
Long story short I was huge best shape of
My life looked fucking good, I became a complete narcissist straight up bros. But then one day herniated disc ouch right can’t do shit. So what did I do? Like a fucking Dumbass? I blasted heavier doses right kept lifting ignored all the great stuff I got here on the forum, but like how many of those post did people take their own advice? I don’t know the answer to that but I hope they did.
Steroids brought me to a dark dark dark world of depression,
Suicidal thoughts, cocaine abuse, alcohol abuse, Tylenol 3 xan you name it because I was so fucking depressed fucking with my hormones and being a Dipshit. And ignoring what was causing my depression all for a big chest and a six pack. I ruined my marriage my life and tried to commit suicide( I’m so thankful to be alive now
I’m a complete idiot and for what I did).
I digress I’m writing this but I see this same post so often when someone dies but after the calum thing I just said man I know I’m not the only one but I think we always try to “justify” our dosage like the one “10mg of tren a day is ok and healthy because blah blah does it you get my drift. I just want to say I’m out the game I’m on TRT because I’m fucked basically but hey that’s what happens right. Listen I take responsibility too I’m a jackass an idiot I stuck that needle in me I picked up the bottle and blasted coke daily . I opened pandoras and lost.
I just wanted to extend our and tell anyone and everyone I’m here for anyone going through a tough time and or someone who is battling this. I’ll check in for the next few weeks but after that I’ll probably check out of here. I want to be healthy and be there for my kids so being around juice talk all day is stuff I just can’t deal with.
I truly appreciate everyone here again mods can definitely modify if needed definitely not trying to cross a line.