SacToSD, with all due respect, my opinions:
If you are not happy with yourself before AAS,
then you will not be happy after AAS. It's really
not about the drugs, it's about your perception of
yourself, your self image, be it big or small.
If you have not previously exhibited enough
control, or "transformed" your body to achieve
something close to contest condition, then it's
not the time and place for AAS and you.
You are what you are, and maybe, just maybe,
this isn't the direction you should be reaching in.
If your looking for a solution to your dilemma,
it does not come in liquid form, to be injected
intramuscularly at various frequencies.
And based upon your posts here, maybe this is a last
ditch effort to achieve your idealized self image. If
it is, please be careful.
PS. the only way to know if you have a hormone
deficiency is to have your blood drawn and checked.