Been on gear since I was 21 years old. I turn 30 this summer. The past few years its been a base of 500mg test with usually another compound and peptides/gh.
I recently got engaged and I have treated her so poorly. I cannot control my emotions. My ocd is bad and I was prescribed lexapro at 10mg. Worked wonders the first 2weeks then basically felt like it went away. Dr. bumped me to 20mg and same thing happened. Felt great for about a week and then I just lost it. Lately I have just been on 500mg test, 50mg proviron everyday and peptides/gh and he told me thats way too much test and when I get angry about something ocd related I cannot control my temper due to too much test. I naturally had anger issues as a kid so im sure the test can increase them. So the past 3weeks i bumped the test from 500mg to 400mg to slowly work my way down to a true hrt dose of 150mg test and i'd like to stay on 50mg proviron if possible. Maybe 25mg. i also use hcg at 250iu 3x per week b/c I want children in the future. Anyway its getting so bad now my fiance said if I have an outburst again she is leaving. I have said sorry so many times and I just continue to slip up and when I get angry I blow up. for example she posted something on facebook I didnt like so I took her laptop and basically ripped it in half. This isnt good. Do you think the test is causing me to lose control and possibly effect my lexapro? I want to lower it to 150mg and im just going to do that now.
So obviously the bodybuilder in me has some questions. i dont want to lose the way I look. When i went from 500mg to 400mg I didnt notice much but going down to 150mg I know things will change. Im still going to use 4iu gh per day with peptides b/c i know they cannot effect anger and it should help keep me lean but im just wondering how much of an impact lowering my test from 400mg/wk to 150mg/wk is going to have on me? How many calories do you suggest I take out to make up for it? Or maybe keep it the same and add some extra cardio? I'd like to do whatever I can to maintain how i currently look at around 5'11" 230lbs roughly %10 bodyfat. Thank you for your help.
I recently got engaged and I have treated her so poorly. I cannot control my emotions. My ocd is bad and I was prescribed lexapro at 10mg. Worked wonders the first 2weeks then basically felt like it went away. Dr. bumped me to 20mg and same thing happened. Felt great for about a week and then I just lost it. Lately I have just been on 500mg test, 50mg proviron everyday and peptides/gh and he told me thats way too much test and when I get angry about something ocd related I cannot control my temper due to too much test. I naturally had anger issues as a kid so im sure the test can increase them. So the past 3weeks i bumped the test from 500mg to 400mg to slowly work my way down to a true hrt dose of 150mg test and i'd like to stay on 50mg proviron if possible. Maybe 25mg. i also use hcg at 250iu 3x per week b/c I want children in the future. Anyway its getting so bad now my fiance said if I have an outburst again she is leaving. I have said sorry so many times and I just continue to slip up and when I get angry I blow up. for example she posted something on facebook I didnt like so I took her laptop and basically ripped it in half. This isnt good. Do you think the test is causing me to lose control and possibly effect my lexapro? I want to lower it to 150mg and im just going to do that now.
So obviously the bodybuilder in me has some questions. i dont want to lose the way I look. When i went from 500mg to 400mg I didnt notice much but going down to 150mg I know things will change. Im still going to use 4iu gh per day with peptides b/c i know they cannot effect anger and it should help keep me lean but im just wondering how much of an impact lowering my test from 400mg/wk to 150mg/wk is going to have on me? How many calories do you suggest I take out to make up for it? Or maybe keep it the same and add some extra cardio? I'd like to do whatever I can to maintain how i currently look at around 5'11" 230lbs roughly %10 bodyfat. Thank you for your help.
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