I am 32 years old, and have been with my gf for about 2 years.
I am completely in love with her, and am sure that we are meant to be and will get married. However, some days I get scared and I look to see what else is out there. What am I missing out on. I've never cheated on my girl. Never met with a girl for lunch, never lied to her about where I was at. I escape to the internet -- sometimes I check out girls on Facebook, other times I exchange emails with girls and filrt. LIke some guys, the "chase" I find fun, im good at it and it's what I know to do -- but I know deep down I am not capable of ever crossing any physical lines.
I treasure my girl and love her tons, but marraige scares me. I don't come from a very loving family. My mother passed away when I was young and my father left my sister and I. My sister is my best friend, yet I never tell her I love her. I'm not one of those people thats says I love you much, but I do say it every chance I get to my girfriend. I sometimes get scared that if I propose people will question me or doubt that I did the right thing, I have a hard time answering calls from my GF at work and talking to her like I would normally do. I really think and know though, that a real man can push that insecurity away and love his life partner like she deserves.
I have bad habbits that I can't break, my friends expect me to pick up the hot chicks..so I get online to see what else is out there, could there be anything better than what i have --- and really there isn't, my girl is perfect, but I still look, and really i'm disrepecting my girl and wasting energy and time on something negative instead of her.
I don't want to be like this. I want to be sure of my feelings and give her the world, she deserves it. Where can I start. Can someone recommend a book that goes into detail on how to start fixing this.
I am completely in love with her, and am sure that we are meant to be and will get married. However, some days I get scared and I look to see what else is out there. What am I missing out on. I've never cheated on my girl. Never met with a girl for lunch, never lied to her about where I was at. I escape to the internet -- sometimes I check out girls on Facebook, other times I exchange emails with girls and filrt. LIke some guys, the "chase" I find fun, im good at it and it's what I know to do -- but I know deep down I am not capable of ever crossing any physical lines.
I treasure my girl and love her tons, but marraige scares me. I don't come from a very loving family. My mother passed away when I was young and my father left my sister and I. My sister is my best friend, yet I never tell her I love her. I'm not one of those people thats says I love you much, but I do say it every chance I get to my girfriend. I sometimes get scared that if I propose people will question me or doubt that I did the right thing, I have a hard time answering calls from my GF at work and talking to her like I would normally do. I really think and know though, that a real man can push that insecurity away and love his life partner like she deserves.
I have bad habbits that I can't break, my friends expect me to pick up the hot chicks..so I get online to see what else is out there, could there be anything better than what i have --- and really there isn't, my girl is perfect, but I still look, and really i'm disrepecting my girl and wasting energy and time on something negative instead of her.
I don't want to be like this. I want to be sure of my feelings and give her the world, she deserves it. Where can I start. Can someone recommend a book that goes into detail on how to start fixing this.