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thank you man, yea i dont think somebody could understand without knowing the feeling. this is update.
last night was the 2nd worst night of my life. it was one week from my previous disaster and the ENTIRE DAY i was stuck in dejavu. My morning clients both NO-showed me as they did the previous friday. at class the professor asked me to leave early due to me being unsettling to the rest of the class . at 9:00 ish my GF got a call and her mom needed to go to the FUCKING ER!!!! i SPENT A SECOND FRIDAY IN THE SAME ER!!! they had the same TV show on, i even saw some of the same people. i tripped so hard in that ER and i had to literally re-live it again, i starting taking more of the med i was given with NO AVAIL, ended up taking two too many and passing out shortly after getting home.. my GF would not let me leave when i wanted to, just like last time, making things MUCH worse. she does not know the circumstances surrounding my situation and was ignorant of the fact that me being there last night was a terrible idea, i have developed a deep hatred for her that she could never understand. there were people with fucking pneumonia coughing on me and i flipped the fuck out and left. i feel as though i am stuck in another place, possibly hell, seeing as i have died. nothing has returned to normal since last night, i had to call out of work today because i could not see for almost 2 hours after waking up. i now have complete detachment from myself and people around me. im sitting here typing yet can barely see the computer screen as it is coming at me in waves. around the monitor has gone bright red/purple as have all things i do not directly focus on.
Hope this helps you in even the smallest of way to deal with your experence.
People who get short-term psychosis is they come in contact with information about themselves that they had previously not noticed or accepted. Then, whereas the proper thing to do in this situation is to accept it and float downstream, these individuals usually try to repress or bury the information and that's when it turns into quicksand. A small glitch in the experience, for an extremely mentally sensitive person, could produce weeks or months of psychosis until either the issue being repressed is addressed and brought to the fore or the effects of the drug are gone long enough for the person to successfully repress the information and go on.
Generally, LSD does not enduce insanity, but it is a damn good conductor for it. The bottom line is the people at the most risk will, by definition, never know they're at risk. Period. Everyone who puts LSD in their mouth the first time is taking a huge risk. The only thing that a person can do is be prepared for anything, go with the flow.
The thing with strong hallucinogens is this: when you think, while on drugs or not, your brain is constantly rewiring itself to accomplish the necessary matrix network configuration to make the thought process and retention of memory possible. As the most efficient configuration is realized, the strength or weight of active connections is strengthened or weakened based on the continuation of actuating stimuli.
The best way to find out whether or not the psychosis is long-term is to talk with the individual. If they seem more "troubled" than "psychotic" then I'd say they're just trying to work through a difficult experience