I agree. I am sure nearly everyone on here has had those thoughts. I don't really have an issue going up in dose but I don't now as I simply want to feel good. If I didn't feel so crap on high test I would do it and the same for many other things. If 300mg/ml primo existed and was pain free I would try 1ml a day for an experiment (with test and deca). But these days I seem to be getting lower and lower in dose.
We all take risks but now I don't want to be too reckless. Although if I had no issues using high aas and hgh it would be fun to use a few grams of test, tren, adrol and a good dose of hgh and blow up. That's not on the cards for me though as I can't even use 2iu hgh for more than 1 week without wanting to sleep all day
I am also a big believer in getting the most out of the lowest dose now and moving up in stages. I didn't do that and my 2nd cycle was quite high but when advising people I think for long term results it's better to be sensible with how quick you up things and also not adding in the likes of slin until later on.
The other day I was thinking let's go for it this summer and when I thought about what I wanted to run it came to 50mg test p, 20-50mg tren a and 40-60mg avar per day. So not exactly going for it
But after years of doing this and holding most of my weight that is plenty for me to look my best. I do this for fun so I don't need to load up drugs. I genuinely don't think upping things a lot would make me look much better. Although as you stated if you want to be a freak most people will have to push it hard at some point. A lot of the guys we supply who are competing at a high level all use over 4 grams in contest prep and that is very standard these days.