Man this hits alittle too close to home guys ...................as I have known many that have died from the wrath of a gun .[ I even had a cousin that I loved dearly ,murdered in a pool hall parking lot not that long ago over nothing ] And suicide , is just an unexplainable hard thing to endure and part of why I could never do it .[ even when I wanted to] My condolences my friends ..........I am very sorry for your losses .........I really am ,I unfortunately know those emotions that you are feeling all too well ....way too well I am afraid ......hang in there guys .............my best to you and their families .......
Arm .....thanks for your concern ......I have often wondered if my day will come via the way of a bullet myself ..............I have been shot at a total of 16 times and have guns pulled on me in maybe two dozen more occasions other than that .[ it has been awhile , so I hoping never again] ....two of the times .....bullets hit other people instead of me .[ a girl in the top of the shoulder and a guy in the ass ......I cant believe people will fire a gun happlessly , not even knowing how to properly aim it or fire it ......If I ever have to blast someone .....I assure you ,I wont be missing ......I actually am not a gun person at all .....even hate them .....but i respect them ...... and know how to use them .... I have taken combat shooting classes and read up on the subject .....I have a friend that is a Ranger ......he sayes he has seen some elite special forces guys that dont shoot as well I do ........] Scariest thing ever ........this guy busted a bottle over a friend of mines head once at a bar that I was running .....[ second to last alcohol club that I ever ran and it was a tough ass place ].........I saw it and just lost it .......I just ran full speed at this guy .......and drove my forearm right threw his head knocking us on top of the 48 in tall bar .[ I mean we flew .....and I am in great shape at this time ......290 ish ....lean and training with top fighters every day at this time ...... I was way to quick to smash folks then....I felt like a damm super hero ....all that cardio ....with good size , knowledge ,and strength was an empowering feeling ...too much so really ] . I started to rain right hands on the guy as he was still bent over the top of the bar . I cant get leverage to knock him out ....so I just reach down real quick and grab his ankles and pull him down off the bar , which of course ,drops him head neck first on the concret floor...........then I drag him by the ankles ,because he basically done at this point [ I wanted to humiliate him ]and drag him into our loading area behind the club .....put a few boots to him .....making sure to stomp on his nuts until he actually threw up [ a guy that hits a person doing their job in the head with a bottle when they arent looking...... has no nuts anyway .....lol ] then I grabed his limp body by the belt and kind of clean and jerked him into our dumpster out back .[ it was awkward ,and it took me three times to finally get him in .....lol ....my employes were amazed .....the guy was maybe 210 ....] About two hours later ......we are closing and one of the guys grabs me out of office and sayes we should go see if the guy is alive ......I say leave him , they go out to look anyway . when they go out and to their amazment the guy is gone ..........they couldnt believe a guy could take a beating like that and walk away ....... I blew it off and didnt think about it ......two weeks later .......my guys are clearing the lot ......and everyone is slowly leaving except one car ....... tinted windows ,no lights on , no license plates , and engine running .... .......one of the guys calls me on the radio and asks me what to do about this .[ I was upstairs counting money ] i said let me come out and see what to make of it ...........As soon as I make it out , the car starts to move slowly in our direction .......when it gets close it stops and just sits there ......like a moron ......I walk up to passenger side , and knock on the window .............the window imediately comes down , and there is the still beaten up looking guy from two weeks earlier smiling like a crazy person .........it supprised me ......he sayes , " now what punk and pulls out a 9 mm glock and points it my face and pulls the trigger ,[ Time stood still ...It must of only been a split second , but it seemed like an eternity , I about shit myself .....then when he went to squeese again, things suddenly sped back up ........] So I tried to punch him ,but his friend steps on the gas and I only graze the top of his head ......as they are speeding out ......there are two speed bumps as he reaches the second one, he almost hits a car pulling that is arriving to pick up one of our servers head on .They avoid the collision and as they hit the second bump crashing into a landscaped area of bushes out in front of our building the gun discharges into the guys leg.......... the bullet goes through the floor board ...and the bullet fragments off the ground grazing a waitress in the shoulder ........we run up to kill this guy ....and he had nicked his femorial arttery and blood was just squirting out of his wound ...........one of my guys is an emt .....uses a belt to apply a tourniquet [ I said let him die ] and the police come as do the paramedicics and take the guys / server away [ I was really shaken up ....my hands shook for like two hours ...I couldnt believe my life could have been done that quickly over that ,by a scumbag ].......the girl was just really scared and nicked from the hot lead fragment about maybe 30 feet from where they crashed [ some luck huh ?].......the whole mess ....took a year and half to resolve [ the shooter only got 8 years and the driver only got 4 .....I was pissed ] But I tell you ...........that might not have been my day to go , but I sure did lose my superman complex for awhile ......I was sick to my stomach for a long while after that one .........I still am protective , and stupid when my emotions get the best of me [ it may cost me my life sometime and I except that ]......but I am more careful about certain situations ...........You never know when it is your time or who you are dealing with [ I got very lucky that time .....I know I wont be next time ]...........Thanks again Arm for your concern about Ivan and I [ I worry about him too ] .....Once again ,sorrry about your friend ......I really am .....you need me I am around ...ok ? I will be sending your football dough out next next weekend .....take care bro