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It's a long story and I'm not even sure what advice you guys can give me.
My wife and I have been married for almost nine years now. I'm 43 and she is 32. We have a two year old son.
Early on everything was great. We both had good jobs and were kind of living the middle class American dream. We had lots of free time, got to go out a lot, buy nice things for each other. Our sexual relationship was very satisfying.
We had been married about a year and a half when everything changed. My wife got dizzy while she was at work, fell, broke her neck and had a mild stroke. There were lots of medical bills even though we had insurance and we went from two incomes to one. Couldn't sue the employer, the doctors examined her and she got dizzy because she had a urinary tract infection. In fact, I had even told her not to go into work that day... that she should take off and see a doctor but she's really stubborn and in fact we had a huge argument about it that morning. This haunts me to this day.
So she goes through rehab and has to learn how to feed herself again, walk again, everything. She made good progress but to this day still has a slight speech impediment, is very weak on her left side and has frequent dizzy spells. She also has horrible migraine headaches which is something she's had since she was a teenager.
In the meantime our finances are crumbling. It's very difficult to adjust going from two incomes to one. Even cutting back we've managed to rack up a lot of credit card debt. There was talk about applying for disability but my wife's parents are extremely conservative and look down on people who get government aid. Allowing them to influence us was a huge mistake on my part.
A few years go by, we're just kind of muddling through it all. I started working two jobs to try to make ends meet and my wife was left at home alone a lot of the time. She was very lonely and unhappy. She started saying/doing stupid things to get attention. Making up stories about how she saw someone get shot at the local Wal-Mart. Story sounded fishy, never saw in the papers. I called the Wal-Mart and employees there said it never happened. So that's only a little psychotic, I know a lot of women have done worse.
Our sex life starts taking a real nose dive at this point and I'm kind of thinking about a divorce but I feel really sorry for her situation. I don't think she could make it on her own even if I paid alimony and even if things were turning sour I felt like I still loved her.
She started demanding we have a child. I thought maybe it would make her happy and we did both say we wanted to have kids when we first got married. But now that she's had the stroke I knew it wasn't a good idea for a lot of reasons, potential medical complications being one of them and additional financial stress being another.
But she made it through the pregnancy without any major health issues and a little over two years ago she gave birth to a beautiful son. I thought it would make her feel less lonely having a child to care for but instead things just got worse. She didn't realize what a huge responsibility it is being a mother and it's been really tough for her. To her credit, she's done a great job of taking care of him but now she complains about never getting any adult interaction. I'm still not around home as much as I'd like to be but I really do make an effort to have family activities with the both of them. But it's just not enough for her.
Our sex life is still not that great. We have sex maybe once a week. And that's if she's not having a migraine or on her period. And I'm not really trying to blame her for this... sometimes I'm just not interested in sleeping with her. I've looked into several health issues that might be causing the problem. I have low test, hypothyroidism, sleep apnea along with high blood pressure and high cholesterol. All are being treated except the sleep apnea (can't tolerate a CPAP machine.) I'm trying to lose weight to help with this. I'm down from 250lbs to 201 and am aiming for 185. It really hasn't helped my snoring though and I might wind up having to have surgery for it. I don't get good quality sleep right now and between working two jobs I'm just really exhausted all the time. I don't even go to the gym anymore.
I'm doing what I can to make our relationship work. We're going through marriage counseling. I really want to keep our marriage together now for the sake of my son.
So there it is... my screwed up little life. I'm still plugging away at least and trying to do the right thing. I dumped all this here because I really don't have any good friends that I can talk to. Thanks in advance to those of you who took the time to read it and respond.
My wife and I have been married for almost nine years now. I'm 43 and she is 32. We have a two year old son.
Early on everything was great. We both had good jobs and were kind of living the middle class American dream. We had lots of free time, got to go out a lot, buy nice things for each other. Our sexual relationship was very satisfying.
We had been married about a year and a half when everything changed. My wife got dizzy while she was at work, fell, broke her neck and had a mild stroke. There were lots of medical bills even though we had insurance and we went from two incomes to one. Couldn't sue the employer, the doctors examined her and she got dizzy because she had a urinary tract infection. In fact, I had even told her not to go into work that day... that she should take off and see a doctor but she's really stubborn and in fact we had a huge argument about it that morning. This haunts me to this day.
So she goes through rehab and has to learn how to feed herself again, walk again, everything. She made good progress but to this day still has a slight speech impediment, is very weak on her left side and has frequent dizzy spells. She also has horrible migraine headaches which is something she's had since she was a teenager.
In the meantime our finances are crumbling. It's very difficult to adjust going from two incomes to one. Even cutting back we've managed to rack up a lot of credit card debt. There was talk about applying for disability but my wife's parents are extremely conservative and look down on people who get government aid. Allowing them to influence us was a huge mistake on my part.
A few years go by, we're just kind of muddling through it all. I started working two jobs to try to make ends meet and my wife was left at home alone a lot of the time. She was very lonely and unhappy. She started saying/doing stupid things to get attention. Making up stories about how she saw someone get shot at the local Wal-Mart. Story sounded fishy, never saw in the papers. I called the Wal-Mart and employees there said it never happened. So that's only a little psychotic, I know a lot of women have done worse.
Our sex life starts taking a real nose dive at this point and I'm kind of thinking about a divorce but I feel really sorry for her situation. I don't think she could make it on her own even if I paid alimony and even if things were turning sour I felt like I still loved her.
She started demanding we have a child. I thought maybe it would make her happy and we did both say we wanted to have kids when we first got married. But now that she's had the stroke I knew it wasn't a good idea for a lot of reasons, potential medical complications being one of them and additional financial stress being another.
But she made it through the pregnancy without any major health issues and a little over two years ago she gave birth to a beautiful son. I thought it would make her feel less lonely having a child to care for but instead things just got worse. She didn't realize what a huge responsibility it is being a mother and it's been really tough for her. To her credit, she's done a great job of taking care of him but now she complains about never getting any adult interaction. I'm still not around home as much as I'd like to be but I really do make an effort to have family activities with the both of them. But it's just not enough for her.
Our sex life is still not that great. We have sex maybe once a week. And that's if she's not having a migraine or on her period. And I'm not really trying to blame her for this... sometimes I'm just not interested in sleeping with her. I've looked into several health issues that might be causing the problem. I have low test, hypothyroidism, sleep apnea along with high blood pressure and high cholesterol. All are being treated except the sleep apnea (can't tolerate a CPAP machine.) I'm trying to lose weight to help with this. I'm down from 250lbs to 201 and am aiming for 185. It really hasn't helped my snoring though and I might wind up having to have surgery for it. I don't get good quality sleep right now and between working two jobs I'm just really exhausted all the time. I don't even go to the gym anymore.
I'm doing what I can to make our relationship work. We're going through marriage counseling. I really want to keep our marriage together now for the sake of my son.
So there it is... my screwed up little life. I'm still plugging away at least and trying to do the right thing. I dumped all this here because I really don't have any good friends that I can talk to. Thanks in advance to those of you who took the time to read it and respond.