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- May 8, 2016
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I started posting here in 2002 under the screen name balplayer. I was 25 years old then and really so excited and hungry to learn anything i could to start competing. I entered my first show and won. after that i was hooked. I chased my dream of winning a overall and state title. After many ups and downs and quitting for 5 years. In 2015 i finally reached that goal.
I came here and re read all the posts i had made. I learned that bodybuilding took me from a naive kid to a very bitter and hateful person. As much as i loved bodybuilding, it tore me up inside and made me not like what i had to do to become what i really thought i wanted. At the time i thought i was normal to be so obsessed about something. I thought it was ok to revolve your life around something that in the grand scheme of things meant very little.
Little did i know that the choices made then would have a huge impact on my life now. I find myself now after having reached the goal i wanted to so badly, to not feeling very fulfilled about it. I never would have thought that would be the case. Now i find myself asking what do i do from here? You can only take your body through so much. How do i transition into being someone who isn't constantly chasing something? How do i justify the training and supplement usage now? its been a long road and i want anyone who ever remembered me from those days to know i am thankful for all who helped me and gave their input. The is a wealth of information here and anyone starting out should be glad that they have access to it.
I came here and re read all the posts i had made. I learned that bodybuilding took me from a naive kid to a very bitter and hateful person. As much as i loved bodybuilding, it tore me up inside and made me not like what i had to do to become what i really thought i wanted. At the time i thought i was normal to be so obsessed about something. I thought it was ok to revolve your life around something that in the grand scheme of things meant very little.
Little did i know that the choices made then would have a huge impact on my life now. I find myself now after having reached the goal i wanted to so badly, to not feeling very fulfilled about it. I never would have thought that would be the case. Now i find myself asking what do i do from here? You can only take your body through so much. How do i transition into being someone who isn't constantly chasing something? How do i justify the training and supplement usage now? its been a long road and i want anyone who ever remembered me from those days to know i am thankful for all who helped me and gave their input. The is a wealth of information here and anyone starting out should be glad that they have access to it.
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