My Journey from hell to stage - Cancer you picked the wrong guy to fuck with.

[La_pantera]

If you think you hit rock bottom yet thrust me what you about to hear will let you rethink what rock bottom is.

3 years ago was the worst day in my life where i lost my dear mother who was only 54 years old due to stomach cancer. she was only sick 1 month before she passed away and i was there to hold her hand in her last breath. many sleepless nights at the hospital next to her. it was really tough year to heal from the pain when i started to heal from the lost it was my time to go trough hell. I wake up one day screaming of pain it was like someone was trying to kill me with a knife even after 2 morphine shots the doctor could not take away the pain, i don't wish anyone this pain it was next level, at the end he knocked me out with fentanyl luckily because i could not take it anymore i was biting the pillow at the emergency room to not scream. when i woke up they took me to the for a scan and what they found was 2 big tumors in my liver. first the doctor said to my aunty its probably not malignant to 99% but my aunty went furious and said i lost my sister due to cancer i am not gonna lose her son to i demand a biopsy right away. so the doctor ordered a biopsy and after they biopsy i went home waiting for the result and not long after we got a phone call from the hospital saying both tumor's are malignant and very aggressive we need to perform a surgery asap but since its a very big surgery there is complications and he can over bleed so its a risky procedure but we have to do it. The surgery took 10 hours and i lost a lot of blood but luckily the doctor said i had lot of blood so i made it. The doctor did remove 70% of the liver and had to remove my gallbladder due to its on the right side. I had to spend 1 month at the hospital with morphine cable attached to my back so i can push the button every time i feel pain. After 1 month i was sent back home and was sofa laying for another month. it was hard to breath so they gave me a machine to breath trough and at night when i try to sleep i get panick attack and get trouble breathing. was very annoying. its like someone strangle you. my apatite for the 2 months was forcing to eat 1 apple a day so i can get my medicine down even my brother brought me thinks i love to eat snacks and chocolate i just wanted to throw up i did not want to look at food. in couple months i was down 18kg. When life starting to get better 2 years later training was going good and recovery was on top starting to feel normal again then something happen again this time from the surgery sutures i developed 2 hernias first they where small but then they got bigger and bigger so i had to go under the knife again and reopen the wound again. So i had mesh replace in there to hold it. under period was waiting to recover from this hell but i was positive knowing that i will get back no matter how long it will take i wont let this sink me its a under testing in life to see how much i got in me.

Here is some photos pre cancer and after. not a nice view.




Here are some photos before my cancer weighing in at 88kg.






Hope you all follow my way back to same shape and size i had before i went trough hell, will be posting diet, training, and photos updates and hope my journey motivates you to keep pushing and never give up. we all got a beast inside us that refuse to quit.

 

[La_pantera]

Currently 88kg bulking and here is my macros and calories.

Steroid cycle:
300mg test prop
300mg NPP

Supplements:
fish oil
Zma
Vitamin C
Liver support


Calories: 4000 Kcal
Protein: 220g
Carbs: 550g
Fat: 120g

Yesterday did biceps, triceps here is a picture from the workout had nice pumps.
3 exercises for biceps and 3 for triceps, 8-10 reps alternate biceps/triceps

 

[pesty4077]

Damn, you went through Hell and back. Most people would have gave up, but the strong move forward. Inspiring story and keep moving forward.

 

[hevi-head]

Amazing!!!!

 

[mitochondria]

amazing comeback

 

[La_pantera]

Thanks guys.

today session was legs, quad and hammies.

Meals so far today, still have 2 meals to get down.


Meal 1: 50g almonds, 100g oats, 300g egg white, 75g raspberries, 1 banana (Mix in blender and drink)

Meal 2: Pre workout meal: 200g pasta uncooked, 150g chicken breast, 1 tbs olive oil

Pre workout shake 30min: 1 muffin, Total war 1 scoop, 1/4 tsp pink salt, 3g creatine

Intra workout: Xtend bcaa + 30g karbolyn

Post workout shake: 1 scoop whey iso, 1 banana, 45g cyclic dextrin

Post workout meal: 200g uncooked pasta, 150g chicken breast

Workout:

Leg extension 4 set, super set. 15 reps x 4
seated hamstring curls: 5 set, 15 reps
Squats 4 set, 15-20 reps
Hack squat 5 set, 15-20 reps
Leg press 5 set, 15-20 reps
Hip Thruster 4 set, 15 reps with weight

very good pump burning in the legs time to eat post workout meal

 

[La_pantera]

ok guys need some help over here from experience guys on contest diets. Monday i am going to start my prep and this is how i was thinking to start prep, i feel i always go very low on calories and carb but this time i wanna do it different so here is my plan let me know what you guys think and if you think i should change around in macros and whats the best plan.

Todays diet: 88.8kg morning weight
4000 kcal
Carbs: 550g
Protein: 240g
Fat: 100g

Contest Prep plan 1 - higher fat - lower carbs

3500 kcal
Carbs: 400g
Protein: 263g
Fat: 97g

Contest Prep plan 2 lower fat - higher carbs

3500 kcal
Carbs: 500g
Protein: 240g
Fat: 58g

Appreciate all kind of tips and help

 

[pesty4077]

1 looks a lot more balanced. I don't consider 97 grams of fat as high if it mostly healthy fats. You can also do high and low carb days by cycling. Keep that protein up too.

Keep up mind, we all respond differently with macros. I personally eat higher fats and protein with moderate carbs and I can get fairly lean for an older guy.

 

[La_pantera]

1 looks a lot more balanced. I don't consider 97 grams of fat as high if it mostly healthy fats. You can also do high and low carb days by cycling. Keep that protein up too.

Keep up mind, we all respond differently with macros. I personally eat higher fats and protein with moderate carbs and I can get fairly lean for an older guy.

I am thinking the same since i am not doing any cardio and fatburner at start to see how much i can loose without cardio just by playing with the calories so little less carbs is probably better plan 1 like you said.

 

[pesty4077]

I am thinking the same since i am not doing any cardio and fatburner at start to see how much i can loose without cardio just by playing with the calories so little less carbs is probably better plan 1 like you said.

I think you will drop fat off that. Add cardio and fat burners later, like you said. I say only drop calories when you absolutely need it at the end. If you are not taking GH, get on it.

 

[La_pantera]

I think you will drop fat off that. Add cardio and fat burners later, like you said. I say only drop calories when you absolutely need it at the end. If you are not taking GH, get on it.

Never used HGH before hear its not worth it unless you take 6-8 iu per day then some people say contest prep its amazing at 4iu a day. you recomm i should add it?

 

[Brock456]

Great comeback. I’m curious do you think your illness was caused by steroid use at all? What was your cycle history before you got sick?

 

[La_pantera]

Great comeback. I’m curious do you think your illness was caused by steroid use at all? What was your cycle history before you got sick?

Thnx, well its hard to know but could be since i was on all the time barely went off for years. but i never used high dosage at all my stack that i was on all the time was. 300mg test prop, 300mg tren a, 300mg mast prop /week

 

[Brock456]

Thnx, well its hard to know but could be since i was on all the time barely went off for years. but i never used high dosage at all my stack that i was on all the time was. 300mg test prop, 300mg tren a, 300mg mast prop /week

what kind of orals did you use? Dosages?

 

[La_pantera]

what kind of orals did you use? Dosages?

never a fan of orals maybe 2 time a year anavar other than that unless its contest prep anavar, winny last 2 months.
anavar 40-50mg day, winny 25mg-50mg day.

 

[La_pantera]

I decide to hire justin harris from start so will contact him tmr. will let you know what the plan will be. Easier to have someone guide you and a third eye to see things we ourself dont see especially during prep less stress and misstakes.

Looking forward to see how the prep with justin will be. I like his high day approach never had that with any coach before. think will suit my body type perfect.

 

[Necrias]

Hey man, good to see another cancer survivor! I had very aggressive kidney cancer in 2019/2020, along with a bunch of other health issues. I didn't get back in the gym until last year, and I was a big fat slob at that point. I just started a log here a while back, and just started prep 2 weeks ago. Looking forward to seeing how you work with Justin Harris! I follow a carb cycle approach myself, and that has always worked best, mentally and physically.

 

[Thor65]

Has the mesh for hernia repair held? Hernia didn’t come back though?

 

[Zamun]

Is the reason for the test prop to quickly change dosing?

 

[La_pantera]

Hey man, good to see another cancer survivor! I had very aggressive kidney cancer in 2019/2020, along with a bunch of other health issues. I didn't get back in the gym until last year, and I was a big fat slob at that point. I just started a log here a while back, and just started prep 2 weeks ago. Looking forward to seeing how you work with Justin Harris! I follow a carb cycle approach myself, and that has always worked best, mentally and physically.

Glad you hear you rocover bro cancer is a night mare.

The hernia surgery wasent easy to this fucking mesh you feel it all the time and i guess it will be the new feeling you just has to accept, its like you have something in your stomach all the time. At the moment it hasent come back but have some places its bulging little bit but i guess it will never be perfect. just has to accept it.

The reason for prop my body cant handle long acting test esters my estrogen spike up to 213 pg/ml on 350mg test e even with arimidex. thats why i use prop.