I have numerous injuries from bad car and bike accidents. I believe I have undiagnosed fibromyalgia, I really truly think I should have a oxycontin rx, even though I have been through it all with opiate addiction. Part of the reason I used street drugs was because I was in so much pain everyday and I couldn't see a way out, every time I tried to stretch or do rehab work I got frustrated and wanted to literally cry and smash things, I couldn't lift weights for 4-5 years. It was a bad cycle of heroin use and relapse,etc.
I finally got clean off it, and now use kratom, which is an opiod, and it is addictive, but I take 4.5mg naltrexone at night, most nights, not every night because it builds up over time and gets to be too much. This prevents me from getting too dependent on the substance, it basically blocks the opiate receptor, which sucks in that you will feel all your pain again, but hopefully you can take some natural supplements to sleep through it.
So far, the kratom and ldn combo is sustainable for the 2 weeks I have been doing it, I take 10-15g a day of kratom split up into multiple doses. You have to re-dose because the pain killing effects only last a few hours tops. It is kind of gross, too. I'm planning to rotate it with hydrocodone and tramadol, and hopefully as I progress in the gym and get stronger and fix my physical issues I can slowly wean off these drugs and use them less and less. Unfortunately I still get occasional heroin cravings, but they are more like passing thoughts now instead of intense anxiety filled events where I feel like my world is ending. I can't say I won't ever touch it again, I'd be lying to myself, but hopefully I never go down the road of giving my life over to it like I did before. It is kind of weird accepting that and saying it, but it is what it is.
I have suffered like this since I was 19, I am 31 now. I can't describe to you what chronic pain has done to my life, it completely changed me as a person, sometimes I have a hard time dealing with it because of thinking of it.
anyways, I can wholly recommend kratom, but don't ever think or let anyone tell you it isn't addictive. The withdrawals aren't as bad as some other drugs, but it is habit forming and you should know what you are getting into if you take it everyday. For any opiate users on here, or any chronic pain sufferers looking to boost their natural endorphins, look into low dose naltrexone. do your research though, you can't just start taking it at the full dose, it will make you very sick if you are addicted to opiods. It has many benefits, and although it does make you feel really shitty sometimes, especially when moving up in dose, it does a good job of up regulating your body's natural endorphin production. I credit it with helping me get off opiates with a much shorter protracted withdrawal syndrome. Before when I tried to get clean, I would feel dead inside for a long time after and this led to relapse. After LDN I found myself feeling normal much sooner, but unfortunately my pain issues meant I had to get on tramadol and kratom, etc.
best wishes to any pain sufferers. always try to get stronger as building muscle definitely helps, and the endorphin high from lifting is as good as any drug, truly.
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