Hey Bro, All of the above posts are right on the money, I broke up/divorced after twenty years with one woman. Yea we had our moments but in the end it was, "WALK AWAY TIME" for us both. Love is one of the hardest emotions we humans can get a handle on. Love is supposed to be pleasant and happy. Fun and fullfilling. How then can it leave us searching our very souls for answers like why, or why me? This is why love is the hardest emotion. It can leave you feeling indetructable and then leave you empty and hurt. It is life!!
For you I think you need to follow the advice of the others. End your pain and suffering now. Move on to better things. When I broke up I turned to my training, God, and my bros for support. That is what we are all on here for my brother. We share a common bond, we share love, we share pain, we share laughter, and we shed your tears also. You must pick your shit up and move on. It all sounds easy enough, but looks to be impossible from your eyes. The devastation you feel is real, it hurts, but time will heal this. Trust me bro, She is not the only one out there for you. People grow up and sometimes grow apart. It is the way of us creatures. Do not be bitter, just look upon this as a blessing in disquise. It has freed you up for bigger and greater achievemenets. You can now unload the burden off of your heart and get on with life.