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As many of you know I never had the best response to gear, and found out I had some cardiomyopathy so I dropped it 3 years ago. May 2015, had cut down to the leanest I've ever been at 183 or so.
Decided to stay on 80mg TRT and have been on that since. Tried to do one last big gaining phase and went up to 220lb over the next 1.5-2 years. Was hitting some new all-time strength levels and biggest measurements to date even just on that 80mg TRT.
Cut down starting January 2017. Things were going great until about May when I hit 190-192. Slightly stronger and leaner than ever before at that weight. Took a 2 week break due to a small surgery. Dr. McClain started me on 1mg arimidex per week to bring E2 down from mid 40s to mid 20s. Since then things have just slowly gotten worse and worse. I took a 3 month diet break and by the end of that 3 months I was just a crappier version of 190. I continued to cut down to 180 by February 2018 to get to the leanest I've ever been in my life. But still, I had lost more size and strength than I wanted or expected,
Since then things have been terrible. I'm now 188 and literally just fatter. I'm no stronger than when I was 180. My waistline and skinfolds are the same now as when I was 5lb heavier last summer. My arms are down half an inch compared to last summer. My bench is down a good 20lb compared to last summer.
Is it possible that even though I came off the AAS three years ago the calorie surplus of bulking for another 1.5-2 years kept the muscle I had gained, and now that I cut for the last year I've finally gone back to essentially what I would have been at naturally? This last year has been very mentally distressing to me as it seems every time I re-assess I'm worse than I was a few months ago. Just weaker, fatter, smaller. The only other notable change was adding the arimidex but I can't imagine 1mg per week would be doing much at all and certainly not negative. I never would have expected this after already being off for 2 years but I have no other explanation.
Even if that is the explanation though, I'm surprised my cut went so well from January 2017 to May 2017. Was still just on the 80mg and retained almost all size and strength up to that point. Again though the only other change was adding a very small amount of arimidex.
Decided to stay on 80mg TRT and have been on that since. Tried to do one last big gaining phase and went up to 220lb over the next 1.5-2 years. Was hitting some new all-time strength levels and biggest measurements to date even just on that 80mg TRT.
Cut down starting January 2017. Things were going great until about May when I hit 190-192. Slightly stronger and leaner than ever before at that weight. Took a 2 week break due to a small surgery. Dr. McClain started me on 1mg arimidex per week to bring E2 down from mid 40s to mid 20s. Since then things have just slowly gotten worse and worse. I took a 3 month diet break and by the end of that 3 months I was just a crappier version of 190. I continued to cut down to 180 by February 2018 to get to the leanest I've ever been in my life. But still, I had lost more size and strength than I wanted or expected,
Since then things have been terrible. I'm now 188 and literally just fatter. I'm no stronger than when I was 180. My waistline and skinfolds are the same now as when I was 5lb heavier last summer. My arms are down half an inch compared to last summer. My bench is down a good 20lb compared to last summer.
Is it possible that even though I came off the AAS three years ago the calorie surplus of bulking for another 1.5-2 years kept the muscle I had gained, and now that I cut for the last year I've finally gone back to essentially what I would have been at naturally? This last year has been very mentally distressing to me as it seems every time I re-assess I'm worse than I was a few months ago. Just weaker, fatter, smaller. The only other notable change was adding the arimidex but I can't imagine 1mg per week would be doing much at all and certainly not negative. I never would have expected this after already being off for 2 years but I have no other explanation.
Even if that is the explanation though, I'm surprised my cut went so well from January 2017 to May 2017. Was still just on the 80mg and retained almost all size and strength up to that point. Again though the only other change was adding a very small amount of arimidex.
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