I just want to go on record to the public to thank God for all he has done for me in the past few years...Heres a quick overview of where I have been ...
I was a complete train wreck for about 6 years, cocaine, and pain killers were in my daily diet..for real...needless to say this took a major toll on my body, physically and more so mentally...I was so addicted to the pills that I had my own scrip pad, and three diff IDs so I could support my habit...I hit rock bottom HARD, was so depressed and disgusted with myself, no girls, no job (I have a bachelors degree) a shit load of debt, and due to the lack of sleep and all the drugs I overdosed alone in my apartment...Luckily, God spared my life....
Second, I had a friend who was just as bad as me with the drugs, he lost his mind one night, and thought I owed him a large sum of money for a pack of drugs that he told my father to flush, so he waited outside my house with a .45 cal til i came out, ran up on me, pressed it to my head, and pulled the trigger (tru story) God spared my life...no boom....
I realized after this I needed to change my life...I went to detox, rehab, then moved to S. Korea to get away from temptation, and to work as a teacher there....It was a great move, and I know God made it happen... I started training again, cuz I was 40lbs up and FAT out of shape...It took me 2 years, but I lost all the weight , and was in good shape, clean, and feeling good...
I started getting depressed again last year, and couldnt sleep...for shit...I took ssris, xanax, ambien, all to mask the symptoms when really it boiled down to me having very low Test levels due to the abuse I did to my body for 6 years, and I took AAS a few times before that, 22 and 23, and no proper pct...I got a scrip for Cyp, and I am now better than ever...
God has also brought me an angel, who is now my wife since October 28th, and we have a great life, we are so happy and blessed and it gets better everyday..I owe it all to God....
thanks for reading and I hope this can help someone who needs it...
newyork :headbang: