I know i have to seriously to look at my life and prioritize. I need to slow down a little and enjoy myself. Im taking this thing as serious as i can. The diet and cardio i can do no prob. Its just tough realizing that im not superman nor am i indestructable. I think that my work outs will be just fine though. Im not going to lift heavy for sure maybe just go for a quick pump and burn...... Ive actually been training like that for the past few years.....
Zephyr:
I know it does feel like it right now but you have received a gift. Instead of it being discovered due to you lieing on the floor in pain, turning smurflike (blue) with its resulting damage, you have come out with no damage.
Depression is normal. You are not superman, in fact I was actually Superman until I learned I wasn't so you could not have been! You caught your problem at a manageable stage. I too got the no weight lifting advice. (In cardiac rehab the max weight I trained up to was 5lb dumbells!)
I cut Anabolics and HGH cold Turkey and started TRT after one year with all doctors knowledge and under a doctors care. I started training again but made concessions.
I do not train to strain. I do not train to failure. I do not lift more than 315 on any lift. I do not squat, I do not do deadlifts, I use no dumbells over 100 and I do not do sets with less than eight reps and usually do 12 to 15. I also do not make any large gains. I do not need to. I am about 245 and relatively fat compared to my 265-280 days. I can live with that. Key word being live. I have to get to 225-215 but it has been a struggle working against these beta blockers, which result in lethargy and weight gain for many patients.
You can live a "normal" life. The problem is bodybuilding is not a normal life. This results of this event in your life are in your control. I'm betting you will make a positive out of it.
Good luck to you.
I am taking the approach to avoid the heaviest strain/blood pressure/adrenal response, lift. I've done this for two years now with no reduction in heart function.