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I'm 35 and have seemingly had depression my whole life, I also seem bi-polar and very anxious IMO. I'm low income so my doctor options have always been very limited to whatever I was provided with and to be honest, after about 20 years of dealing with MD's, I've just exhausted..... It's been rare that I get a doctor that talks to me for more than 5 minutes, I can occasionally see a psych. or therapist but I get about 8 sessions on average before they basically just give up on the situation (I don't so much blame them as much as I do the insurance). I had labs and various tests done when I was younger but all I got was "everything looks normal" and a script for some new anti-depressant, I wish I would have been smart enough to ask for copies of my lab results back then so I could look them over myself or ask someone knowledgeable to look them over.
I can't afford a decent insurance and definitely can't afford the fees of an anti-aging clinic, I qualify for medicaid due to my low income level but I have to jump through so many hoops just to keep it active and occasionally it gets cut-off depending on my income, which means I suddenly have to stop certain very addictive medications cold-turkey.
I feel like shit. I have zero motivation to do much of anything, very pessimistic, very lethargic, no libido, mind is always very foggy/can't seem to focus on anything, I feel like my gym progress has not only halted but actually gotten worse, my strength has really bombed and my metabolism is just plain sad.... the most disturbing thing is other people notice it. I can't tell you how often I have people at work ask me "are you ok? you look so tired" or "whats wrong, you look like you haven't slept in days"...... which hurts to hear but I'd rather hear the truth
I'm thinking of just getting my own labs done and self-medicating, I mean over a decade of dealing with doctors has gotten me nowhere, not even a conversation about how I'm feeling or anything, just "here, try this zoloft, come back in 6 months and we'll see how you're feeling".
Sorry, I'm sure there are great doctors out there, I just haven't had the fortune of coming across one.
I clearly have depression and some mental health issues, and some anti-depressants have helped a TINY bit, but so tiny that I often wonder if it was even worth taking something with such harsh withdrawals for such a minuscule reward. I have a sneaky suspicion that there's more to the picture, perhaps my test is really low in the normal range (or e2 out of whack) and/or my thyroid is low. I'm going to try to get my own lab work done, aside from the obvious test/thyroid, is there anything else I should keep an eye on based on my symptoms?
I'm scared, but also desperate, I'm nearly reaching the mid-point, god permitting, of my life and it's been nothing but suffering, i feel if I keep relying on doctors the past will just repeat itself. I see the same guys at my doc appointments, in their 60's and 70's, all falling apart, never making any progress.... I don't want that to be me.
Some days I wonder if just going on a good mid-range dose of test, maybe some t3 if it's low and some racetam/nootropics would do me better than all these SSRI's they keep shoving down my throat.
I can't afford a decent insurance and definitely can't afford the fees of an anti-aging clinic, I qualify for medicaid due to my low income level but I have to jump through so many hoops just to keep it active and occasionally it gets cut-off depending on my income, which means I suddenly have to stop certain very addictive medications cold-turkey.
I feel like shit. I have zero motivation to do much of anything, very pessimistic, very lethargic, no libido, mind is always very foggy/can't seem to focus on anything, I feel like my gym progress has not only halted but actually gotten worse, my strength has really bombed and my metabolism is just plain sad.... the most disturbing thing is other people notice it. I can't tell you how often I have people at work ask me "are you ok? you look so tired" or "whats wrong, you look like you haven't slept in days"...... which hurts to hear but I'd rather hear the truth
I'm thinking of just getting my own labs done and self-medicating, I mean over a decade of dealing with doctors has gotten me nowhere, not even a conversation about how I'm feeling or anything, just "here, try this zoloft, come back in 6 months and we'll see how you're feeling".
Sorry, I'm sure there are great doctors out there, I just haven't had the fortune of coming across one.
I clearly have depression and some mental health issues, and some anti-depressants have helped a TINY bit, but so tiny that I often wonder if it was even worth taking something with such harsh withdrawals for such a minuscule reward. I have a sneaky suspicion that there's more to the picture, perhaps my test is really low in the normal range (or e2 out of whack) and/or my thyroid is low. I'm going to try to get my own lab work done, aside from the obvious test/thyroid, is there anything else I should keep an eye on based on my symptoms?
I'm scared, but also desperate, I'm nearly reaching the mid-point, god permitting, of my life and it's been nothing but suffering, i feel if I keep relying on doctors the past will just repeat itself. I see the same guys at my doc appointments, in their 60's and 70's, all falling apart, never making any progress.... I don't want that to be me.
Some days I wonder if just going on a good mid-range dose of test, maybe some t3 if it's low and some racetam/nootropics would do me better than all these SSRI's they keep shoving down my throat.
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