As I sit here typing this with aggressive stage-4 bladder cancer and the knowledge that my chances of still being here in a few years are pretty much nonexsistant, I came to a decision. That decision was to continue being who I am and doing what makes me happy. And part of that equation is that I’m still hitting the gym and doing what I need to do to make that enjoyable. I’d rather have one happy year, rather than two empty years just scratching to hang on. I am using my head. But I’m not crawling into a corner and just waiting either. I’m staying positive and I believe the body follows the mind to a large degree.
I always knew I would not live forever. Until my cancer happened, that reality was in the fuzzy future. But, when the reality of your limited mortality is staring at you right in your face, you think very hard about what you want to do while you can still do it.
None of us here are assured of standing on firm ground. We don’t control it, despite our wishful thinking. Its a nice thought though, it makes us feel empowered. Life does not happen that way. Unforseen things happen. Good and bad. No exceptions. Might as well make it one you can smile about in the end. I’m not fatalistic. I do think we are all part of something bigger. I just don’t think we are knowledable enough to ask the right questions yet.
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