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So guys for most of you remember my other thread, I broke up with the ex about 6-7 weeks ago. I was on a lot of tren at the time, and one thing tren does with me is makes mer extremely paranoid. Towards the end of the relationship I noticed she was acting distant towards me, and I convinced myself she was cheating (When she turned out to not be cheating).
The past week and a half though we have been talking again. I figured at the very least I might be able to become friends with benefits with her. So I go through all this trouble today new haircut, new clothes, ready to show her the new "me". thing were going great the first hour or so I felt the attraction coming back....but I could tell she still didn't feel the same as she used to and my heart just sunk.
THIS IS WHERE SHIT GETS FREAKY. We're driving along the beach and she turns around. Turns out she saw her first love "kevin". I know all about kevin, he took her virginity when she was 15 and was her first love. She used to tell her aunt that the only time she didn't think about kevin, was when she was with me. So yeah the woman was really in love with me at one time.
Today out of the blue she admitted to me that she had a miscarriage with kevins kid when she was 15.
I can't even begin to describe how angry I was. For a woman I trusted so much to hide something like that from me.....I used to spend hours trying to help her with her emotional issues. She always had a look of sadness about her....Had I know about the miscarriage at getting pregnant that young I would of never gotten involved.
It's funny you know fellas, the past week I've been regretting my gear use because in a way, the tren triggered my temper and paranoia...as a result that pushed away the woman I thought I loved....
but had I not been on so much tren we probably would of still been together. And I would of never found out the truth about her past.
Not really looking for sympathy...just felt like sharing this story with you guys. This happened literally three hours ago so Im still a bit in shock right now.
The past week and a half though we have been talking again. I figured at the very least I might be able to become friends with benefits with her. So I go through all this trouble today new haircut, new clothes, ready to show her the new "me". thing were going great the first hour or so I felt the attraction coming back....but I could tell she still didn't feel the same as she used to and my heart just sunk.
THIS IS WHERE SHIT GETS FREAKY. We're driving along the beach and she turns around. Turns out she saw her first love "kevin". I know all about kevin, he took her virginity when she was 15 and was her first love. She used to tell her aunt that the only time she didn't think about kevin, was when she was with me. So yeah the woman was really in love with me at one time.
Today out of the blue she admitted to me that she had a miscarriage with kevins kid when she was 15.
I can't even begin to describe how angry I was. For a woman I trusted so much to hide something like that from me.....I used to spend hours trying to help her with her emotional issues. She always had a look of sadness about her....Had I know about the miscarriage at getting pregnant that young I would of never gotten involved.
It's funny you know fellas, the past week I've been regretting my gear use because in a way, the tren triggered my temper and paranoia...as a result that pushed away the woman I thought I loved....
but had I not been on so much tren we probably would of still been together. And I would of never found out the truth about her past.
Not really looking for sympathy...just felt like sharing this story with you guys. This happened literally three hours ago so Im still a bit in shock right now.