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Alright guys, I'm struggling here & hoping maybe someone can give me a bit of guidance. I'm going to sound like a whiny bitch here probably. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope so to say however.
So a bit of history here(FIRST COMPETITION - 2013)
Started prep at 198 last time - pretty high bodyfat
Did my first bb comp 2.5 years ago. Used a prep coach. Did a ~20 week diet. Came in very shredded.
Supplements:
200mg of test cyp weekly
200mg of eq weekly
Some clen
Weight came down easily. Cardio never went terribly high(I think maybe 4 sessions weekly).
Easy prep
This go around(SECOND COMPETITION - 2016)
Started diet in January, competition May 14th. So 19 week diet.
Started at 190lbs - much leaner than last time.
Cycle used:
100mg prop eod
150mp tren eod
200mg eq eod
The cycle had felt pretty good until about 10 weeks out.
At that point something switched. I haven't slept more than 3 or 4 hours straight for 8 weeks now.
Cardio has also had to be increased significantly. I'm currently at 1 hour 7 days a week(a few are HIIT sessions, a few LISS).
I am waking up wide awake at midnight or so after going to sleep at 9, and then laying around until 230 when I can go open up my gym & hit cardio. Then I train clients from 4am-7pm. I've grown to hate every aspect of my day. I tick down clients through the week praying I can get through the week as every aspect of the day seems like a struggle. My attitude is shit(I've been told).
Weight is not coming off. Holding steady at 170ish, I could tell I was getting tighter UNTIL this last week.
Coach had me add in 50mg of anadrol daily to harden me up. I've never taken anadrol. This saturday weight was up 7.5lbs, waist up an inch, I feel watery, am retaining a shit ton of water through my lower legs(even have some bruising due to expansion).
So needless to say yesterday I was pissed. Felt awful. No energy(which has been an issue for the last month or two). I decided to drop the adrol on my own as obviously it doesn't agree with me water wise.
Had my typical refeed yesterday. Woke up today another 11lbs up. Face looks like I've been beat up(swollen as hell). Crazy stomach distension.
I went ahead and hit my first cardio this morning, and will hit another this afternoon.
Just a quick side note -
I will have letrozole here monday to hopefully knock out some estrogen related water
I have been taking 10mg of nolva daily for the last few weeks to help keep water down(due to listening to john meadows recommendations)
I dropped my test back to 50mg, and tren back to 100mg as I am hoping it may help the insomnia.
Grabbed some melatonin and am hoping that will do SOMETHING about the sleep.
I guess my question is why does it seem like my body is fighting me every step of the way this time whereas last time I cruised in. Physically I felt ready the previous saturday( I was sitting at 170 and felt really tight ) but mentally I am destroyed.
So a bit of history here(FIRST COMPETITION - 2013)
Started prep at 198 last time - pretty high bodyfat
Did my first bb comp 2.5 years ago. Used a prep coach. Did a ~20 week diet. Came in very shredded.
Supplements:
200mg of test cyp weekly
200mg of eq weekly
Some clen
Weight came down easily. Cardio never went terribly high(I think maybe 4 sessions weekly).
Easy prep
This go around(SECOND COMPETITION - 2016)
Started diet in January, competition May 14th. So 19 week diet.
Started at 190lbs - much leaner than last time.
Cycle used:
100mg prop eod
150mp tren eod
200mg eq eod
The cycle had felt pretty good until about 10 weeks out.
At that point something switched. I haven't slept more than 3 or 4 hours straight for 8 weeks now.
Cardio has also had to be increased significantly. I'm currently at 1 hour 7 days a week(a few are HIIT sessions, a few LISS).
I am waking up wide awake at midnight or so after going to sleep at 9, and then laying around until 230 when I can go open up my gym & hit cardio. Then I train clients from 4am-7pm. I've grown to hate every aspect of my day. I tick down clients through the week praying I can get through the week as every aspect of the day seems like a struggle. My attitude is shit(I've been told).
Weight is not coming off. Holding steady at 170ish, I could tell I was getting tighter UNTIL this last week.
Coach had me add in 50mg of anadrol daily to harden me up. I've never taken anadrol. This saturday weight was up 7.5lbs, waist up an inch, I feel watery, am retaining a shit ton of water through my lower legs(even have some bruising due to expansion).
So needless to say yesterday I was pissed. Felt awful. No energy(which has been an issue for the last month or two). I decided to drop the adrol on my own as obviously it doesn't agree with me water wise.
Had my typical refeed yesterday. Woke up today another 11lbs up. Face looks like I've been beat up(swollen as hell). Crazy stomach distension.
I went ahead and hit my first cardio this morning, and will hit another this afternoon.
Just a quick side note -
I will have letrozole here monday to hopefully knock out some estrogen related water
I have been taking 10mg of nolva daily for the last few weeks to help keep water down(due to listening to john meadows recommendations)
I dropped my test back to 50mg, and tren back to 100mg as I am hoping it may help the insomnia.
Grabbed some melatonin and am hoping that will do SOMETHING about the sleep.
I guess my question is why does it seem like my body is fighting me every step of the way this time whereas last time I cruised in. Physically I felt ready the previous saturday( I was sitting at 170 and felt really tight ) but mentally I am destroyed.
