It's just not something you see everyday on this forum. In fact except from you I don't think anyone has been so proud to post that.
Was that back in you drinking days?
Yes, but that's done and over with now, I had a fetlife page that went back a several years and I had pics and videos of myself having sex with over 100 women. Once I stopped drinking heavily, I started thinking a lot and decided to change... The pics weren't about penis enlargement though, because I am completely against it... I've stated many times, not sure if here, but elsewhere, that women use a guy's penis to control him... If he's average, they will tell him he's huge, if she likes him... If not, she will imply that he's inadequate... Then in my case, half of the women complain, actually more like 90% saying that they don't want to have sex with me the first time they see me... Or later act as if it's a chore... Or another girl I was dating from fetlife, would first praise me in every way, saying I was the best lover, bla, bla, bla... So then after I dumped her ass (I found out that she was married and doing all of that behind her husband's back, she even did about 20 porn movies!)
Anyway, after that she wrote a blog in fetlife about penis size and how it doesn't matter... She then said that her ex, (referring to me) had a huge one, but it only served as a decoration, because I didn't know how to use it... So my point is that it's not really the penis that will satisfy the women, but they like to make us think it is, so that way they can try to control us using something that we can't control... Also I had a few friends who tried injecting that caverject shit with igf-1 and this guy used caverject from the pharmacy, not that research grade crap... Well, he did it for a year, got some swelling, then he told me that he had to go to the urologist because he was impotent and had almost no feeling in his cock, the worst part is that he shrunk right back down to his original size, the second he stopped... I haven't spoken to him much since then, but I think it's a very stupid idea to constantly inject the penis, especially with UG grade crap and experimental chemicals... I took a look at the PE log someone had, I read there that he was impotent, he was blaming it on low test levels... Not sure what became of that, because the thread seemed to have stopped... The point is that, it's a stupid idea to risk damaging your penis for a little more size, just to try to please a woman, who you will likely not please anyway, if you have the size, she'll say it's something else if she doesn't like you... If she does like you, then no matter what size you are, it'll be good enough for her...
I closed my fetlife page completely, not just deactivated it, because I've done that before, but I deleted it, I can't get it back now, I can only start a new one, which I won't be doing any time soon...
I also decided to work on my temper and to let go of grudges and things from the past that still piss me off... That part is a lot more difficult... I still feel like getting revenge on things people did to me 15-20 years ago... But I meditate, pray, whatever I have to do to calm down... Keeping the drinking under control has definitely helped me with most of those things, I still have work to do, but it's an ongoing process and I have to take it one day at a time...