bro you have no idea what I've been going through... I have been to the site multiple times and say a prayer to him I was screaming for him when the cops got there an ambulance got there the trying hold on I actually have PTSD and night terrors about the accident so I went to start to seeing a shrink he put me on all these types of antidepressants and if I could trade spots with the kid I wouldn't a heartbeat I really do it has been such a burden on my whole family especially my fiance because of the fact of I leave the house for a couple months after the accident a lot of things I am scared of now or have anxiety I should say very bad I don't like to drive I don't like to do some other things I basically sit at home and don't do anything up until October right after I got my sentencing date so I feel so bad because I've lost my best friend right after high school from suicide he jumped in front of a train but besides that a lot of problems that I had to overcome in this past year because financially I don't make enough money for a lawyer that wants at least 20,000 down to see my case and I told him before even cook we're going to start that I could pay him a certain amount every week before cart Court would start and he would probably have at least 15,000 before the case even started going on and then I would have went to trial but they all want money up front and then I had to deal with the public defender who was just looking to make a plea deal the whole time and I made sure because the family came in every time at the courtroom when the case was up that I had my public defender apologize and say some things on my behalf about trading places with him he had his whole life in front of him there's not a day where I don't think about that so if you think that I don't care I'm sorry that I didn't mention it before but I really do I'm a human being and being stuck in the truck next to somebody who's bleeding internally and tries to say something and blood comes out of their mouth and then takes a breath and that was it the paramedics right away just threw a blanket over them and I'm telling him to do something you got to do something and I'm screaming his name to try and keep him alert I'm full of his blood it was very traumatic and with the night terrors I wake up at least 3 times a week that used to be every night I would only get 2 hours of sleep cuz I'd be scared to go to sleep because of having the night terrors but my psychiatrist is tapering me off of the antidepressant I'm on and what other medications he has me on also... I was just wondering the main question was should I take a quick low test and proviron for a few weeks I'm not trying to build a big muscle or anything I blew up from 170 to 210 lb and it's alright in my stomach so I'd like to get back into shape big time that's why I'm joining a boxing class doing a lot of cardio changing my diet and I just really want to have sex with my fiance as much as I can before I go away that was the part that I was trying to get at since I came off I just started my PCT mid-april or beginning of April I'm sorry and took my PCT until June it was about eight weeks at their PCT 4 and I haven't been having any sex drive or anything at all I can be hard and then go limp it's very weird I've never had this problem before also I've never came off before I haven't touched any anabolics since April and have taken Cialis Viagra and still won't happen so that's why I have to wait until November to get my blood work done and see a doctor because that's what my new insurance kicks in also I was just wondering if anybody had any I suggestions or anything about what I just said since I am going away for 5 years so that's what the post was about was any what they thought about a cycle or just even a bottle of test probe and then PCT right to it and be taking proviron the whole time I don't know I'm not in an expert with anabolics I'm probably mediocre-at-best so I use talk to text so I'm sorry about my grammar and periods and everything it's just my phone doesn't want to type certain letters but if you have anything positive to say please feel free thanks