My man,
I work the streets for 25 years now and I know about everything you just describe. Saw it all too. And the babies and little kids……
. So much pure evil out there. One thing you probably forgot about but I know you know about are the “screams”. My god the hair on the back of my neck stands up when I hear them. Pure horror and pain. I literally have nightmares pertaining to what I heard and seen. I know you experienced it too. Just stay strong man and never be afraid to lean on those that love you. If I didn’t have my loved ones and coworkers, I would have committed suicide long ago. Sometimes it’s just all to much. Get well soon Sir.
BLKGUY-
I love you for stating the truth!
Big dam hug!
Yes the screams and the young suicides of young kids eat at you!
You drive home hoping you don’t cartch a bullet because someone recognizes you in your personal car!
I really didn’t have that problem…I gave respect..earn it and lived it..even on the steets…they knew me at the movies, at the malls and at Motor City Casino…all I would hear is thats the coolest officer.
Come up shake my hand …would I stress..NO WAY..because I wasn’t the officer that called them a low life POS.
I would ask how is your family doing, come sit with me for lunch..I don’t fear a thing..I fear my sadness of my wife losing her husband and being without me. That’s all I fear.
I see a girl down a whole bottle of blood pressure pills and not stopping CPR on her until the Medics are screaming at their top of their lungs that she has been dead for dam 10min already as tears drip down my face!
80% of my gang I had worked with did the FMLA gig…you had to! The others go to their docs pick up their zanax and down them with their alcohol at the local sleazy nudiebar!
I don’t and ever will put down a good officer but….put my own life on line because of your own drug dependance and put me in a hospital preventing me from seeing my beautiful wife…BLKGUY I know you know how that feels!
Someone has to do the job that eats at you but knowing 2330HRS is coming around and death and violence are coming to your playground makes me sad in the heart!
I will defend, I will protect but don’t have my back while this is happening…meet me at Locker#22 for a personal educational consultation!
Were not all perfect BLKGUY and I never stated I was…we fight the demons and the devils of this world and should be paid minimum $350,000 a year!
Thats a precise number I have worked on for a long time!
Love you!
Be safe!