I'm right there with you bro, 2015 was absolutely devastating to me. What you mentioned you are currently losing I have lost all together.
The girl that I couldn't have even imagined up in my head prior to meeting her because she obliterated my so called dream girl and exceeded anything I could have ever wanted. She's gone forever.
Any money I had is gone and replaced with debt. Fines, court costs, incarceration costs, lawyer fee's, etc etc.
I lost my freedom at one point.
But honest to God, I'm grateful. We either choose to let our failures define us and destroy us, or we rise up and choose to learn from these invaluable life lessons. We can dwell on the mistakes we made, or we can focus on the now and never make the same mistakes again.
Idk about you but I believe that everything happens for a reason. And that the more adversity you face, hard times you endure, and pain that comes your way, the more life is going to pay off down the road so long as you continue to learn from each situation and understand the role you played in each circumstance that didn't go right. We're exactly where we are in life due to choices. Many completely out of our control. But we always have a choice. And guaranteed as we persevere through these hard times that seem so unbearable and impossible right now, so long as we choose to adapt and grow, we will end up stronger, wiser, and eventually have a peace we never knew existed due to the out of control spiral we once called daily life
The good news is the downward spiral will eventually come to an end. When it ends is mostly up to you. There's always rock bottom but hopefully changes are made before that point gets here. And once that point comes, there's only the climb upwards. None of this is permanent. You will be happy again. Things will get better. Believe me, I've been at rock bottom. I've battled extreme depression that most people cannot begin to comprehend or understand. I've resorted to certain drugs in certain amounts that I refuse to share with anyone, all due to a guilt and blame I placed on myself and dragged around wherever I went.
People loosely throw around the word hate. But no one knows true hate until they hate themselves with every cell in their body. I've been there and now I'm not. You have to forgive and let go of whatever is keeping you from experience life with joy. I'm here to tell you that you will overcome all of this and in the end be better off because of it.
Learn your passions and find a way to make income from them. Then figure a way to share it with others so it also brings them benefit. Take time for yourself, don't worry about others. Happiness is about knowing yourself completely and loving that person you are.
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