Feeling Withdrawn

[dragonfire101]

I think it has to do a lot with my job. Ever since I started working I have not been able to do the things I enjoy such as bodybuilding. I ended up having knee surgery about 8 months ago and then that even prevented me more from bodybuilding. What sucks this bodybuilding is my venue to relieve stress. For about the past 6 months I have not lifted at all. The 6 months before that it was sporadic.

Lately my job has become so stressful because my case load has increased and the demands get higher the more stress and work you can handle the more hey give you at the job. I actually think I have some physical conditions going on from some anxiety. Lately I have been breaking out in hives at work. I don’t think its an allergic reaction to anything either. What is worse is I have a stomach condition for the past 1 ½ that they cant find out what’s wrong. First it was colitis now it just IBS. Its discouraging because all it is a diagnosis of inflammation of the stomach because they cant find the source. I had a parasite 2 years ago and I was on 3 courses of antibiotics over a period of 4 months. My stomach was better , but after six months of this job it was worse than ever. So that is about 1 1/2 it started becoing wors. I also was diagnosed with sleep apnea 7 months ago also. I haven’t used the CPAP though.

Approximately 10 years ago I had Lyme disease untreated for about 3 years. Time they diagnosed it my body fought most of it off, but I had severe complications from the previous 3 years. . My joints were somewhat deteriorated and I ha some neurological problems and I could not really walk for 4-6 months and that’s when I started using gear ,which help tremendously with my joints along with some alternative therapies investigated

I was always told by the Docs that you always have Lyme disease and under periods of high stress the body may exhibit physical problems. So in regards to my current situation I don’t know if that’s what is going on right now. It appears so.

I just started to attend the gym again this week and it’s a struggle. I couldn’t even bench 225. I m use to doing sets of reps with 305.

I sometimes feel that there is a supernatural force that is throwing all these things to prevent me from physically doing things I enjoy and holding me back.Ever since I was 18 it appears so . I went to college I started wrestling and had to stop because of the Lyme disease. Then I became so sick I had to drop out of college for about 6 months and quite my job at the time, but I moved past it after those 3 years I was sick. Then 4 years went by it was great. Then the parasite, apnea, stomach problems and knee. I feel like whats next once I get past all this.

I have one medically fragile child on my caseload. I actually asked this past week if they were going to give me more case to give me more medically fragile children because I believe I was starting to feel sorry for myself. I figured when Im at those homes I feel fortunate to have the issues I do because it could be worst.

Anyways I had to vent because these feelings have been building up and I have been becoming discouraged.

 

[Sigmund Roid]

Dragonfire,

I think it is normal for someone who is really into weight training to feel down when they are unable to do so. I know I have gone through it to varying degrees throughout the time I have been lifting. That's 20 years for me.

I am sure you know that, but I thought it might help you to know that I have felt much the same as you do right now.

I think you are just being honest about the way you feel and that's okay. I tend to get mired down in the problems of others as well. Take some time and think of some genuinely fun activities you enjoy and plan to do something pleasurable each day.

As far as working out goes: I'd try to keep it very basic. Devise simple routines that cause you no pain and are fun for you. For example, I tend to enjoy training biceps and triceps together. It's a blast and who doesn't enjoy the great pump you get from training opposing muscle groups?

Keep your chin up, Dragonfire.

 

[PassionateBB]

Oh Dragonfire, can I relate to you! I won't go into all the gorey details. But every year, I swear to God every year since 1992 my health has severly interrupted my life! LOL. As far as bodybuilding and training, 2 open heart surgeries, numerous hospitalizations (including right before and even the day before competitions) and the goddamn lengthy reccoveries kept me out of the gym for long stretches of time. But....even when I was so weak or sick to work out, I did go to the gym just to hang out. Because I desperately needed something that was familiar to me. It was the only thing in my life that was normal! Even in the hospital, I did arm exercises with DBs dragging around an IV pole. LOL.

I've had so many layoffs and had to start over so many times you'd think I would have given up! But you can't give up. It's discouraging as hell. It's like taking one step forward and then BAM! two steps backwards. I know, I just know, that getting back into a routine at the gym is going to change things for the better for you. It doesn't matter how much you lifted before. It doesn't matter how much you lift now. What matters is just getting your butt in there and doing something. Slowly, a routine will develop and it will all work out. I promise you!!!

I took most of last year off because of skin cancer and just feeling like you do now, a dog kicked when they're down. We all know the hardest part about getting back into it is walking through that door. Isn't it? Walking through the gym door being someone other than the strong person you were just recently or previously. But you just gotta keep plugging along. Eventually you won't let these medical problems take over your life. Do what I try to do on a daily basis. Just say F*** It!!! I'm still going to be me!!!!

It's a battle but you can win it. I swear to God! And you know how much better you'll feel mentally just training and being in that environment. Consider yourself under construction. Again. So you have to recreate yourself again. And you can do it! One day at a time.

 

[PassionateBB]

Shit I just noticed this was from 2002! LMAO! Sorry, I'm blonde!

 

[JustWannaBeHuge]

Shit I just noticed this was from 2002! LMAO! Sorry, I'm blonde!

don't worry sweetie, his post was recent, he joined in 2002. hehe

Rob

 

[PassionateBB]

don't worry sweetie, his post was recent, he joined in 2002. hehe

Rob

Hahaha...must have been the highlights I got done yesterday! Or no reading glasses.

 

[StoryOfTheYear]

Hahaha...must have been the highlights I got done yesterday! Or no reading glasses.

Excuses excuses

 

[GENE]

dragon, last i talked to you the knee injury was from sparing?

give me a call sometime this weekend

 

[dragonfire101]

Passionatebb you sound like a very resilient individual to manage to get through all of that. I’m glad you can empathizes with me and I with you. It sounds like you have had a much more difficult time than me though. I hope life is treating you a lot better these days and your managing to enjoy yourself. Keep persevering to do what you want to do and stay strong.


GENE , glad to see your around. Haven’t heard from you in a minute. I hurt the knee sparing in 1/05. I started the grappling classes because my stomach was screwed up the 6 months prior and my new job had my scheduled messed up and I needed to starts something that was hopefully going to get my mind off those things because I hadn’t been in the gym because of them. Then I some hater kicked me in the knee at practice at 90% when I was even expecting it. This knee I already had surgery on back in 1996-97. I left a lot of injuries out/. Had nasal surgery in 5/04 that when seems like a lot started going down hill from there for the second time in my life for me physically. I shortly contacted a stomach parasite after the nasal surgery, which went away after treatment, but my stomach was %100 after that and then became even worst 6 months after, and still is a major issue for me. I had to wait until 8/05 to get surgery so I was off my probationary period at work. My knee started feeling better 11/05. I started to do a little sparing mostly calisthenics so I could finally get back in the gym. I slipped and fell on some ice and reinsured the knee I just had surgery on and sprained my other knee also that I have issues with. Anyway I have some articular cartilage inflammation going on in both knees that just started feeling better so I just started to attempt to work out again. I stopped the grappling because I feel I cant risk getting injured.