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I have them a lot. Had them today. Times are rough lately for most everyone. I’m extremely sensitive which makes things hard at times. Just trying my best from day to day.
What’s been up JJ? Tell us youre okay brother, I miss seeing your big donkey ass around here.
Bro when covid started I thought that was it for me. I was already barely scraping by with my business and for the life of me I couldn’t figure out why business had suddenly turned so bad for the 18 months prior, there was no real reason for it and i tried everything to turn it around with no change whatsoever if anything it was getting worse. I felt like I was totally cursed, no matter what I did it turned out bad every single time. I was already trying to sell it cheap just to get out of debt and actually did have a deal in place before covid. Well covid ended the deal obviously and I thought that was the final nail in the coffin. Even before all that it was hard just getting out bed and dealing with it all knowing that I had a successful business in place that made great money but because of some bad business decisions and some shitty partners all I was doing was working my ass off to make minimum payments on debt and keep from being out on my ass completely. It sucked and it got worse when covid first started, there was nowhere I could go to for help it was just a shit sandwich all around and it was completely on my shoulders. I was in a bad place, really bad.
Well turned out the payments on my debt we’re going to be put on hold, okay that was good I could save up some money that way for a few months and be in a little better shape temporarily. Then it turned out there were grants and loans available, also good but not going to turn my business around.
Business was dead I had nothing but time, I used that time to optimize some things and fix any minor little issue I could find with the business that I didn’t have time for before covid.
Money is one thing, sure it sucks to see something you spent all your young and adult years building up to completely turn to shit and see your future waste away slowly but that wasn’t all of it. I was going to let down my family and disappoint them, that part killed me. I take care of my parents I pay all their bills and I knew the day was coming, coming very soon, where I had to tell my dad I couldn’t afford to pay them anymore and I didn’t have a dollar to my name, mind you my father was doing radiation treatment at this time. My father is not the type to give me a hug and say “it’s okay son”, not at all. I would be a complete failure and that would hurt him more than anything especially now that he was feeling like he was in his twilight years and I would be letting down my mom and sisters who look up to me. My father is not a bad person at all that’s just how it was and that day was coming fast, that’s all kinda difficult to explain in words but that was what was eating me alive every day. I probably wouldn’t have been able to hold out another month I was fucken selling watches and liquidating inventory that I shouldn’t liquidate just to make the bills the month prior and that was only the bills I HAD to make I was months late on other ones.
Well a couple weeks later it happened, business absolutely exploded. Overnight it went from the worst I’ve ever done to the best I’ve ever done and it has stayed that way for months now. Other than some minor covid related things I still don’t know exactly what triggered it and it hasn’t tapered off at all it’s actually getting better. 3 months later I’m completely out of debt, I paid back every penny I ever borrowed, I’m back to paying all my parents bills with a smile on my face, I’m reinvesting in my business to increase revenue without worrying about the bills at all and the future is looking bright and rosy. In fact I have interested buyers again in my business but this time at triple the price. I’ve been working 7 days a week getting my dick kicked in but I’ll fucken take it any day of the week over where I was a few months ago. I thought life was over I ruined my future and I had to start from nothing as a grown man on my own, never been so low in my life.
JJ my brother my point is that it’s not over, the sun is still shining and whatever the fuck it is that is holding you down one day you’re going to wake up and it’s not going to be something youre thinking about any more. It may not be tomorrow it may not even be soon but it will happen.
Be well my friend, trust me.