ok guys dont know if this is the right forum if not i know the mods will move it but here it goes....since about april my mind has been in a stae of chaos let me begin....this might get long...i took care of an elderly mother from oct 2007 uuntil about january of this year when i said enough is enough...my mother has never had any love in heart for any of her kids i lived by the fist and fear of my mother....my father passed away in 1977 when i was 12 years old and my mother was never mentaly the same after that. the minute i turned 18 i moved out got a steady job at 22. in oct 2007 she threw a stroke so i moved closer to her to take care of her...and it was a living nightmare. 2 out of my 3 sibling live 15 minutes away my sister told me straight out i aint helping i have a life and my one brother basically told me the same but would come over one day a week for 2 hrs take her to mcdonalds drop her off and leave the rest to me the other brother lives 14 hours away......so everything fell on my shoulders i kept telling her to get my other brothers and sisiters involved she refused because she knew i would do everything so what i started to do over the last year was pull back learn to say no tell her call your other son call your daughter stop calling me....i also told her not once in her life did she ever invite me over for coffee or tea whenever that phone rang it was because she needed something done do this do that i need this i need that....and let me tell you this is a very wealthy woman she can afford to have people do things for her but rather use me as her personal slave....so i had the opportunity to move to a place i always wanted to live and in may of this year packed my bags and left...the last words she said to me were....and i quote "you make me sick" well the year before i left so that would be 2012 i met this girl she had no job no car no nothing i paid her phone bill her kids phone bill lived with me and didnt pay a dime christmas week of 2012 between giving her money to bu her kids gifts and paying phone bills and lending her money just for that week was a 1000 bucks......spent christmas with her and her sister and the next damn day didnt hear from her for four weeks tell me to come see her and when i was on my way would call and say she is doing something else...fucking pissed me off and believe me their is more that i did for her but this story would get too long...well anyway when i start to realize people start taking advantage of me or taking my kindness for weakness i pretty much develop a sort of mild hatred for them and thats what started with her so i was like damn i am lucky she is gone know how much money i am going to save...and that was that and right before i moved my phone started to ring the texts started from her but i moved...she would call me when i was down here was just waiting for a simple....i miss you and i would of packed my bags and came back butthose words never happened....now since i have moved i am having a hard time adjusting. i know no one where i moved and its not easy going out by yourself and not looking like a douche. i am older 48 years old...i have played the game thing and am well passed that stage in my life looking for a real relationship and what i am meeting is the same old crap...i went to a labor day party and i wasnt there 5 minutes and some girl grabs and complimenting me on my physique starts telling me how her clit is tingling when she is looking at me and want to run her clit up and down my body....i swear to you this is true....i almost spit up my beer...but man i am so passed that type of woman that it was a complete turn off...like keeping yourself in shape is a curse and the only thing i attract is these type of woman...now mind you my head is fucked up because of my mother my head is fucked up because of the ex and i am feeling quite lonely and the only saviorr is the gym which is where i am heading when i am done with this...but i noticed within the last month or so the texts and phone calls from the ex stopped...hmmm so i did something stupid today because my head is fucked up right now and i asked her if she is single still because i wanted to come home and i missed her...so i get the i am kinda seeing someone and its not fair to him if you keep texting...i am like, fair, fuck i supported your ass for over a year and you treated me like a dog and now your worried about fair....well i just needed to get this off my chest...i know i am better without this woman in my life but i let her crawl back into my head....what i am trying to say is i am a bit depressed right now looking for some direction...if i go to the beach i swear to you a gay guy will hit on me and the woman in the bikini is afraid of me i guess because i keep myself in shape. i dont need to work but i choose to work 3 days a week but i am going to leave the job because its not what it was described to me as...i am lucky that way that i dont need to work and i realize how lucky i am...just kind of depressed feel a little kicked in the nuts my mother fucked up my head and i let this woman who i know is no good for me to crawl back in my head.....i feel alone and cant seem to get my groove going right now...i am attracting the wrong type of people know matter where i go...my head is twisted a bit a need some guidance from you brothers her on the forum....by the way my mother is 83 and has all functions after the stroke...any help fellas.
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