Rediscovered happiness

notsobig32 · Feb 2, 2009

Everyone,

I comment in here a lot and hope i at least offer somethign to the people whose posts in comment on. Here is a little something about me.

About 3 years ago i met a woman very unlike any woman i had ever met. She was strong, independent, beautiful and sexxy. We began dataing and i fell head over heels for her. She fell head over heels for me. Things were amazing, we both had kids from previous marriages and i had honestly never felt that sort of connection with anyone before. So after 6 months of happiness i proposed and right around this time i ripped my pec. So, the doctor was throwing painkillers at me left and right i was getting hooked on them. A friend of mine had offered us to try coke and guess what we got hooked on that. We stayed together because the love we felt for each other was that strong and we knew how perfect we were.

Well my addiction got worse and worse(i am not going to go into how it evolved but lets just say that it ended up being about $1000 day habit) and it eventually ended up with me cheating on this wonderful woman. We separated and didn't talk for months and months. I got clean, she got clean. And out of the blue one day she called and told me that she wanted a divorce. I am not sure what was wrong with me, i think i had been living in a fantasy world. She was involved with someone else, i was living some sort of halff-life. The phone call shoook me deeply. I went home that night (an i didnt use=-)) but i had a nightmarre about the rest of my life without this wonderful woman in my life. I took a personal inventory and realized just how bad of a person that i had become while being high all of the time. I decided then and there that i could not live my life without at least trying to work things out with her. Rather than gocompletely gangbusters like i normally would, i sought about changing the characters flaws and defects that had allowed me to become a bad person. I asked her(even though she was seeing somoene seriously) to attend marriage counseling. She actually agreed. So we went through marriage counseling , i lived up to my word on everything i promised, i have changed most of th character flaws(. so has she) and we have stayed clean. So shortly after all this she ovbiously stopped seeing the other person. I am writing this because i have my wife back in my life and i am the happiest that i have ever been. We are living together again, we are doing things sober. I know this is going to sound corny and emotional but i have not always been a good person but this is the woman who has always seen the man that i can be(and am becoming) she has always stood by my side. She loves me unconditionally for who i am. I wake up every morning and i thank god that i have someone in my life that i can truly be myself around. She is truly an amazing woman and i am very thankful that i have her.

Some people are going to comment i p-whipped or such i am sure but i know that the people who are my intended audience will understand what i am saying. i just wanted to share a little something about myself with everyone because i feel that you all share a little somethign of your selves on the board with me everyday.

Thanks everyone for being here. BTW Disney cruise leaves thursday!!!!!!!!

Gators · Feb 2, 2009

Wow, that's truly inspirational, outstanding work Bro! Not much better than a good marriage, not much worse than the feeling you have when you've totally F'd things up. Dude, that took alot of guts to do what you did, that tells alot about your character, and your wife sounds like a great woman!