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- Dec 2, 2009
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I have two versions of how I feel about myself. The first version is the one where I look very small to myself, I see deficiency in almost every bodypart, and a lack of rapid improvements everywhere. This side is my "pro bodybuilder" side, and I know it is not real, will never be real, but has a purpose in driving my motivation. Because I'm realistic about this version of how I see myself, it doesn't depress me, it just motivates me.
The second version of how I feel about myself is the satisfaction in what I have achieved, and the feeling of what I have built. This is my, "realistic bodybuilding as a hobby" side. Here I enjoy all the work I have put in, what I have accomplished with my physique, and how good it feels to have built myself this far.
I'll see you in the gym...... (I really like training with this cat)
I'm older; almost 60. I've been training in some discipline for over 40 years. Like so many of us, I go through dramatic swings in how I feel about the way i look and always have. Oddly, how I feel about my appearance has very little to do with how I actually look. If I'm OK with life in general, I look OK. If I am aggravated and insecure in general, I look like hell. Needless to say, when I have dieted for contests I've been mad at everything and look worse by the minute.
Right now I truly look bad. As age and injuries accumulate, so do excuses, if you choose to slip into them. I've had 3 orthopaedic surgeries in the last year and training has suffered, but I could have eaten better. Over this many years, though, I've learned to suck it up and get back in it. I want to compete again.