BFred:
Stay strong, you are coming to a realization now that will make the next sixty years of your life more enjoyable. This is temporary, the benefits from the comments I have read from you can be permanent. Your faith, your family, your health, your work.
The blame game has already done its work and it is time to abandon it. Recommitt to moderation in all things. All systems fail at the extremes rarely in the middle. Take strength from BaldNazi. He and many others have received their wake up call at different times and different ways. I got mine last year. You will be judged from what you do from here forward, the past is gone.
I took my car to be detailed and it came back set on a Country Station. While I don't normally select that, I don't mind it and listened a little this moring. The song I remember was about a guy who was singing about wishing he could write a letter to the 25 year old version of himself and the things he would say and advice he would give. Very thought inspiring. I started thinking about what letter I thought I would have written, and what letter I would write 20 years from now. You have just received your letter.
Be at Peace,
Pekkerwood