You're gonna marry a chick you lie to about your gear use??? I wouldn't be marrying anyone I had to lie to about anything. You might as well start drawing up the divorce papers now. Seriously, how can you respect her if she's too stupid to realize your are on AAS??? How betrayed will she feel when she finds out???(and she eventually will) Are you gonna have a special hiding place for your gear and sneak shots in the bathroom before you take a shower??? Sounds like too much work to me. It seems like it would be less of a headache to just find a girl that accepts you as-is, bad habits included. Just my 2 cc's.