****UPDATE*****
-Currently still on 150mg test e 1x week
-Been off Finasteride 4 months
-ED issues definitely but i can still perform at like 50% which is terrible but could be worse. Sex drive is absolute ZERO, no sex drive at all.Nothing todo with my relationship. I legit feel Asexual.
- Self diagnosed myself with "Anhedonia"
"Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure. It's a common symptom of
depression as well as other
mental health disorders.
Most people understand what pleasure feels like. They expect certain things in life to make them happy. Maybe you enjoy riding your bike, listening to the sounds of the ocean, or holding someone's
hand. But some people lose the ability to feel joy. The things that once made them content are no longer fun or enjoyable. That's anhedonia."
- I feel as of the last couple of months i have this. I feel empty, i feel dead inside, nothing make me happy, not freinds,not family, not my gf, nothing i feel no joy. I went on an amazing tropical vacation 5 stars bc i won a law suit with a nice lump some of money, neither did the money or vacation affect my mood. Im not miserable or sad per say just not happy.....I attribute this to being 29 losing a career wich was my choice and have not bounced back since a year ago working a cash job for the 1st time in my life. I had my ED/Sex drive issuies before this but obvisuly this does not help my situation.
-Updated labs as of a few weeks ago
All blood markers normal and in range
Testosterone total 813
Estradiol 44 (Little high but don't think its concerning)
Prolactin 14.7
-Saw an Endocrinologist in NYU in NYC told me everything hormonal looks fine
-Referred me to an NYU Urologist who was the head director of sexual dysfunction program. Knowledgeable nice guy who took his time talking and listening to me. He legit didnt know what to tell me. He said i was very knowledgeable and had my head in the right place he just didnt know. He speculated it was the finasteride as i did and said just maybe time. He told me he had guys on Fin who got off and got back to normal and then had guys who got off of fin and wanted to commit suicide.He told me he felt i was in the middle like 5/10. I asked him name of colleagues that he can think of whom maybe can help, he gave me a list of names of Drs from top universities but the best i could do is email them and hope for a response.
Is there anyone who can help me with this issue?
Between this sex drive issue and this possible "Anhedonia" cant imagine living like this