lol ill quit worrying about the scale when the scale tells me what i wanna hear...lmao... seriously i do understand what your saying, but for me its like when i was boxing. i didnt step into the ring until i KNEW i was going to win.
some wins were harder than others, but i wasnt there to actually compete, i was there to win. and its just one of my little quirks but i wont step on a stage until i feel im big enough, and not just big enough to be there, just big enough for me, sure i could get super lean right now and and probably place in a local competition at a lighter weightclass then id like to be in. but to me thats not winning. Winning is definate! and its personal as well. if i dont go in the way i want to then i already lost in my own mind. i didnt beat my own goals, i lost to myself. body building is a funny sport in that way. the lines arent so clear. in a ring you either win or you lose. if you win you did your job, if you lose you didnt. (mind you im not talking about a split decision, those are as good as a loss)! even as i type this (Iknow phill, only when ur hungry...lol) im trying to force down an extra meal(by the way i got an exelent recipe for general tso's chicken that can be eaten even precontest up to about a month out, let me know if you want to post it)because im not going to spend another year under 200lbs, and im sure as hell not spending another 4 under 240! so steel not so much to you, as i appreciate all of your advice, your a great guy, but to ANYONE else these are my goals, you can say what you want about them but theyre MINE and i will never again let anyone tell me i cant do something, within the next year of my life i WILL lift heavier weight, gain more muscle, than i ever have before. And when i come out the other end I WILL be one big ass mother fucker.