Hello back to you J1,
I am feeling sorrow and sadness about your blood issue, but I am feeling somehow glad because you are still here with us, and fighting with prowess to improve your overall health, which I do believe will be taking place God willing gradually within the next few days. Hang in there my brother and take it easy on negative thinking, you are not that old as you've said before, you are only 50, imagine if you were 70 or even 60, you would be wishing surely right now if only you could be 50, look at things from different angles, you still have long happy and healthy years ahead of you, you are a kind and polite human being as you've shown for many years assisting people in and out the forum I am certain, you still have caring parents who love you, and as well you have few good-hearted people from this exact forum who do respect you for who you are, but, more importantly you have your life, you are still alive, you still do have your health with only a minor issue which is not like cancer or aids, or something that grave.
Remain positive with a happy spirit as you have always displayed in this forum, maybe roids will not be ok for you from now on, and this is a maybe, but there are still other healthier options up there, you know 1 by 1 each of them and I mean HGH, peptides with possibly others, and of course and mainly healthy eating, cardio activity and weight training.
I, as other members I am sure, will keep an eye on this thread, getting updates from you, so, please keep those updates coming, I am sure you will be back to the gym in a healthier and better state of mind and physique as well, and very soon.
Sorry for this long post, and thank you for reading.