i have always said i just want to be a liitle biiger or this is my last bulking cycle before i try to cut down.....it never happens....when i graduated in 87 i weighed 127pds....i was too little to even play any type of sports...i tried lifting weights and exercising to no avail....at 20 yrs old i did my first cycle of test cyp@500/wk.....i went from 130,s to mid 150,s and was able to keep most of it....at the end of this cycle i went back to weight gainer shakes and proteins only plus my bcaa,s....still no bigger.....i have now used gear off and on for 21yrs......i weigh around 290-292...i am currently on 2000mg of gear/wk....as of now i have no health problems and continue to have regular physicals and bloodwork....i have finally reached the point to where i may be big enough....for some reason i have huge issues with even losing apound of weight.. this may sound crazy but my size now is affecting my everyday life....not cardio wise....i do my cardio 4-5x wk and do well...i now have problems shaving....washing my hair....sitting in movie theatres and yet still have doubts if i can go through with cutting....i do know if i dropped bf% i would probably look even bigger.....but to be honest i like to be 5-9...290+lbs...16%bf....i like the looks i get...i like the fact when people walk up to me they notice my size....i like being jacked up....is anyone else like this