I feel you dude, i was 280 leaving HS too lol
BUT...i would rather gauge how good my offseason is off of how much bf im accruing. And with the bloat from deca it just throws too many factors in. Personally, with Test/EQ i can get actually still see whats underneath and get an accurate idea of, "ok, you are 12ish%, need to slow down a bit." Versus Deca i honestly have no idea what is water, whats fat, etc.
But im with you on the, "my body is supposed to be big." I played D1 college ball on the oline. So ive never felt like shit during the offseason. I see guys complaining about how exhausting it is, i lived that life for like 4-5 years so it feels relatively normal to me.