Well the problem with drinking to numb yourself from reality is the reality is still there when you sober up, and you feel like hell and often times there's financial and legal issues to deal with from the drinking. To this alcoholic, sobriety is living, drinking is dying. It's not a easy road to hoe, first 6 mths were tough, the cravings were there, hell, i drank for over 25 years, but if you have gone to AA mtgs, the Promises they read do come true, and man what a better way of life. I'm getting into my service work, passing along the gift of sobriety i was given, and it's a very very good feeling. Helping others is what's is about. 6 words describe AA: Trust in God (as you understand him), clean house (get rid of that baggage) and help others.
Sobriety has given myself back to me, if that makes sense, and for the first time, i'm ok w/ myself.
Oh, and Hotdog, don't beat yourself up about your diet, i mean try and control it best you can, but the cravings for sugar will be there, for me it was anyway, because your body and brain is used to getting lots of sugars through drinking. I'd wake up in the night craving something sweet, and eventually got some 72% dark chocolate and would break off a piece and scoop up some natty pnut butter, worked every time. Chocolate saved my ass from drinking a few times, it's in the Big Book. When you're having a major craving, eat something, hunger makes you crave alcohol when getting sober...
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