UPDATEOCTOR VISIT
Gents,
So i went to my doctor for a complete physical and my personal doctor wasnt there, but there are 2 doctors in the clinic and the second one is my brother's doctor. It was the first time him checking me out , VERY nice, and highly intellegent guy .
Done and EKG, BP , weight, temprature and the little stuff. So I started speaking to him about my attack , he said it was a panic attack, the I told him the truth about my use of anabolics and come to find out that his profession is HORMONES! I was shocked shit , he automatically drew my blood and wrote certain things to test for . He highly disagreed about my use and said you think you know by reading online but hormones are VERy complicated it took me 20 years to fully master them , he said im young, the Pituitary has a memory up to 30 years so it WILL result in a future disorder in something. I didnt know wether he is tryna scare me because he is good friends with my father and brother or he was being honest. He said he has patients that has a history of steroid use and now they cant get it up and they come to me saying " doc I cant get it up with my wife, I dont know if shes cheating on me" .
He kept on and he said hell call me in 2 days regarding my blood work , He told me to come in tommorow to attach a heart moniter for me to work out with and sleep with for 24 hours to read my heart.
I stopped the test , i will go back to 100mg EOD on monday because Ive had red eyes and my trainer told me to stop for 4 days to drain it out because i might be having an allergic reaction .
The doctor scared the living shit out of me and now im 4 weeks into my cycle confused as FUCK, depressed from a break up, and just fucking miserable , I wanted to get bigger and leaner, one of my personal goals was to make my ex regret that she has ever left me by upping my lifestyle .
I dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont do any drugs except this , I know Everyone around me is doing from recreational drugs to ridiculous amount of drinking and etc..
I feel fucked mentally, emotionally, and physically .